juniper

The guy I was talking abt in myblast post B. He's pissing me off. I just want to talk to him. He keeps leaving me on delivered or open. I don't know what to do anymore. 

I kinda just need to vent but I don't have anyone anymore. Me and my bf broke up and I miss him hut it was for the best. He was my first love, I tried so hard to be there for him and to love him and take care of him. I tried so hard. I miss him so much. I want a hug from him. I want to kiss him again. He was my boy. I want my boy back. But there's no chance we'd get back together. I've been crying alot and it's on and off. I really did love him. I still do. I always will. He cared abt me more than anyone did, he was there for me at my lowest point but I wasn't there for him. I should've but I wasn't and I feel like shit. I love him. I miss him. (Well call him r)
          
          
          But I also like this other guy that I've known for abt 1 1/2 -2ish years since I move here in 2021, he's funny, smart, I actually hung out with him last weekend and it was so fun. He took me on a ride on his 4 wheeler, doing wheelies. I didn't know he that's what he was doing tho. Till we were pulling out of ny friends drive way I almost fell off and like grabbed onto his shirt and like held onto him. He than keep doing it and going higher and faster and God it was so fucking fun yall. I wanna hangout with him so bad. I've tired to tell him how i felt but he ignores it. But a friend of mine did ask him if he liked me he said yes, but idk he is busy a lot during the day and might be for the rest of the night and he left me on open. I'm trying not to push it. I'm trying to just like talk to him and see what he wants to do. If he wants a relationship or just wants to fuck girls and shit. If he wants to I wanna see if me and him can. I've only done it once with my ex (the one I was talk abt up there ^) but I feel safe, happy, myself again and I haven't felt that in a while. When I was dating my ex I changed so much for him to be happy. I didn't recognize myself but this guy brings the happy side of me back. (Well call him b)
          
          
          
          

Hi Juni

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH

Elloo :D

I'm so fucking done with ppl istg, I'm abt to delete all social media and just not talk to anyone. 

Anyone wanna talk on here or Instagram or snap? It doesn't matter, I'm bored and I wanna talk 

I haven't seen my gf today beside this morning at breakfast and when we were going to our other classes I miss her, I haven't seen her in a cpl days bc last week we ended up getting snow so didn't have school Thursday or Friday and then we had the weekend and then today Monday we had our classes changed for the second semester thingy, we don't have any classes together. And we haven't meet up today after our classes. Usually we would walk each other but we don't even know where any of our classes are so we haven't tell we get the hang out of the we'll start walking each other yo each other's classes but probably not for a cpl since like 3 of my classes are in different builds 

I'm on my second beer. I feel like going to sleep 

HAPPY NEW YEARS! 
          
          How im spending my new years is at my aunts house in her back living room bc my dad works on new years and my aunt didn't want me to be alone for new years so I'm at her house and I'm drinking one of my uncles beers bc he isn't here and it's not like he or my aunt is gonna notice anyway so that's how I'm spending my new years, hbu?