Bastard

m'name 's beau ! n-nice to meet y-you !

'n don't w-worry, you're doin' a-amazing !

ah ! i-i'd love t'be f-friends !

Not that I'll be completely ia on this one but. Still!

Hii again

Crocheting is one hell of a good Hobby. I do too but now much Because of work now

Flo works too it's a little too big. 
            Hi Kaiser how are you?

Oh and my names hamzah 

Wbu tho what time is it for you? 

Just can’t sleep it seems .. idk maybe when clock hits 2 I’ll sleep drowsy 

you see.. i tend to think of myself as something of a chameleon, shifting and adapting, yet never fully knowing who i am at my core. it’s a strange feeling, this uncertainty about my true self, and so i’ve constructed various personas, each representing different facets of who i might be. i use them as pieces of a larger puzzle, constantly trying to arrange them into something coherent in the hope of uncovering the 'real' me. but what makes it even more fascinating is that this process also becomes a kind of social experiment.
            
            by interacting with others through these personas, i gain an opportunity to observe people in a more detached, analytical way—though never with judgment or malice, of course. it’s more like a study of human nature, where i immerse myself in social situations to see how people react and behave. from there, i compile my thoughts and impressions, almost like an essay, where i analyze what i’ve witnessed. i draw on concepts from psychology and philosophy to frame these observations, using both disciplines to offer a deeper understanding of human behavior, motivations, and social dynamics. it’s as though i’m not just exploring others, but in doing so, i’m also exploring the different dimensions of myself.

i accept her as a part of me, one that i’ve created, though the love-hate relationship with ourselves is something we can never truly eliminate. reflecting on my 'xin' persona from 2019 to 2020 brings back many memories. at the same time, it is painful, knowing that some of the people i met then are no longer around. it’s hard not to feel nostalgic for how lively things were on this app during that time.

i'm glad to hear that my way of speaking doesn't intimidate you, as it has for many people in the community i've been a part of for years, along with my group of friends. i also owe you an apology for presenting you with a persona you know as 'xin.' she was an experiment of sorts—someone who stirred up trouble for amusement, or perhaps a part of me i believed was missing. she embodied an inner child i both wanted to be and resented for her immaturity.