Part 1:
This may sound weird for me to announce, but I want to talk about panic attacks.
To be honest, I never really thought of it that much. I never had a panic attack before but I've seen it plenty of times around the internet. I'll admit, I just thought of it as 'a time where you feel really panicked', I never really looked into it that much. Don't get me wrong, I didn't see it as the victim making a big deal over nothing, I understood that it was an important thing that I shouldn't be joking around with.
However, that changed when I experienced it for the first time. It was way past midnight in my time and I was in bed, all warm. I had a good day. I chatted with my friends, I had fun on my discord server, I wrote parts of Ch 23 of OOS and I was all set to go to bed. However, there was a change of events, I won't say who, but it led to me feeling attacked by someone I trusted.
I'm not here to shame them or make them think I'm trying to get people against them. I'm here because I wanted to share my experience of a panic attack.
We were having an argument, over something that I can only laugh at when I think back at it. But at that time, my feelings were hurt. I felt that I was being attacked by something that I loved and I was proud of. When I was shooting my own arguments at that person, I realised that I was shivering, which was odd because I was warm in bed. Eventually it escalated into my whole body shaking uncontrollably.
It's a scary feeling, I'll tell you that. It was scary not knowing what was happening while you're in the middle of an argument and your limbs start shaking violently.
Eventually, about an hour later, I did calm down. I ended up having to watch Youtube in order to help myself go to sleep. In the morning, I did my research on what the hell happened to me and that's when I realised, I had a panic attack. Apparently, it was an automated response of my body to help protect me.
