Nellathebella25
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Ok ngl I'm the most scared of messaging you here-
I'm truly sorry for hurting you and cream(?) I dunno you guys changed lots ever since we separated paths...anyways I have matured and (hopefully) became a better person. I got therapy, like I told hazzy, or cream? Fuck idk atp anyways I am going to therapy and my life has been a lot better than how it was five years ago. I am sorry I hurt you and all of our ex-mutual friends which I hope I can still find contact with to also apologize to them.
Anyways yeah this is done at 3AM so cut me some slight slack...I am sorry for hurting you and our friends because of my want and desire to have everyone in the world to hate me.
Turns out, from what I researched, its a trauma response. I don't know how but it is? I'm getting the right support and help for it now. I also have a boyfriend so lucky me.
He's the one person that stuck with me the whole of 2023 which was the worse year for me. Remember how I would always tell everyone to hate me and such? He tells me that he loves me, even if I tell him he doesn't which WOW he is emotionally available. I could ramble about him but that's not what I'm here for.
I'm apologizing, like I said in the past couple paragraphs, about all the hurt I caused the group, you, and especially cream(???). None of you guys deserved any of it and all for my satisfaction of being alone. NOW I KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO BE ON YOUR SIDE OF THIS DRAMA cuz I experienced it first hand my junior year and my god it was definitely a wake up call.
I'm doing A LOT BETTER, and I'm hoping you and everyone else is too cuz honestly you guys deserve it. Just as much as I do.
We've all been through a lot, and after all of this I wanna rekindle with your consent along with everyone else's consent.
If not, you can throw this out and ignore it, but I just wanted closure between this since this has been on my mind recently.
If you wanna rekindle, you can message me on wattpad I believe...or you can just send a message back here
cotski
@Nellathebella25 Hi Nella. Halo (used to go by Cream) told me about your apology and I want to stop by and check despite not being active on wattpad anymore. I forgive you for what you did since after noticing you changing your layout I knew you wanted to reflect on your actions, but that doesn’t mean I was innocent either. I suddenly got involved after seeinf Halo getting attacked, but from what I remember I wasn’t the best or mature handling the situation. But yeah, it’s all in the past now and I’m happy you wanted to grow as a person :D I hope you and your boyfriend are doing well <3
Nellathebella25
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Hou shit I'm bouta hit my head on the table so I'm gonna sleep
gn breh wut de fuck
