cracked__wood
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I knows people are not gonna see this- or care, but I do want to touch on my proship past. It was one of the worst parts of my life, and I'd like to explain why I was a proshipper and how I got out of it.
Three years ago, I would write fanfic including r@pe, underage characters, and would read fetishy shit and incest. The people who were following me (or just following my books) would encourage this kind of writing, and I was constantly taking in all this disgusting proshipy stuff and thinking, "Well, this is obviously okay if people find it so hot". No one ever though "Hey, this 12 year old is writing some really problematic stuff, maybe we should tell him to stop?" (Not blaming any of my readers, of course, they were probably just as brainwashed as I was.)
I never found the stuff I was writing hot or arousing, I just thought nothing of it. The books were racking in the views, likes, and comments, and I was eating up the attention (I have middle child syndrome </3).
It wasn't till 2021, when I left Wattpad and stopped writing oneshots did I realize that the shit I was writing was disgusting- therefore deleting my Haikyuu book. I started to really think and separate myself from shipping culture, and found non-proship friends, who lead me away from problematic shit and explained why it was wrong. Now that I'm in a 100% better mental state, I am able to see past the glamor of the proship community and see the disgusting filth that's holding it together.
