I'm done, I'm tired, and I want to kill myself. It's no ones fault but mine..I can't put down the bottle and I'm hurting everyone around me. No one is to blame for this except myself. I'm sorry..if I'm to perish from the earth then so be it, I may drink myself to death but it's no ones fault, but mine. No one is allowed to be saying "It's my fault..I made him depressed." Honey, I've been depressed way before I've met any of you, none of you have done this. I'm just drowning in self pity and low worth..I love you all...and thank you for trying to help but really, I can't be helped at this point.