"I want a place to call home.
A person to go to and call my home."
Everyone has said something like this before.
And this is proof we have a home.
We just need to search for it.
Here is my home and how I found it:
I have a place I call home.
I have my tribe, my family.
My tribe is my family and they are my home.
When a bad, long day is in session,
I go to my home. My tribe.
The people who never take a glance at me.
The people I used to call my best friends.
It hurts to see them not know my existence.
But my presence with them changed me.
Badly.
I changed my personality for them.
I changed my beliefs for them.
I changed it all for them.
I believed all the words they said.
The lies.
But I opened my eyes and saw it.
Saw the changing.
And I only found out the changing when they left.
I am glad I am free from their hold.
It hurt for a long time
But I have learned to appreciate everything I have.
With them I had lies that I would believe.
Without them the lies I saw were Lies.
I am my own person.
I am me.
I have my home.
My family - My Tribe.
There will be no one who can change me.
Not everyone will like me for me.
But I like me for me.
This is important for those who feel they are trapped in a friendship that feels toxic.
Close the friendship and be you.
Being you is what makes us human.
I did not break the friendship up but I am glad they did.
It hurts they do not notice or talk to me but that is okay.
Because I know that me is the best me.
Not the show of me I put on for people.
Self care is not Selfishness.