“7 stages”
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shock
denial
anger
bargaining
depression
testing
acceptance
all of which i have felt
and so many others
have shared these feelings.
do you know how it feels when the stars collapse?
when they fall to their doom?
it feels like the deepest pit in your stomach,
it feels hopeless
it’s the same feeling as
restlessly searching the media
for help
and solace
even if it’s in just in a chat, a single word
you want help
you are desperate
it’s the same feeling as
being the only one awake in the house
in the dead of night
alone
in your head
remembering
it’s the same feeling
as remembering the soft tunes
that mothers would lull us to sleep with
singing us to sleep
gently
and lovingly
just as a mother should
it’s the same feeling
as picking a flower
holding
and embracing
its colorful beauty
but also knowing
that you have just killed it
ripped it from the ground
torn it from it’s roots
severed it in half
just to feel it’s beauty
it reminds me of humanity itself
it’s the same feeling
as being so desperate
that you wish for an angel
or somebody
to watch you
die
somebody to hug you
warmly
whispering in your ear
calm,
a feeling we miss
a feeling gone rare
it’s the same feeling
as the ending of a war
“it’s over”
but you lost so much
“it’s over”
but my life isn’t
“it’s over”
but we aren’t
“it’s over”
but we still exist
how can we live now?
how can we move on?
my love, this is not your fault.
every star
must burn out
and die
before it can shine again
