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I had enough Paul. I already waited for you long enough to break me and leave me permanetly damage. Honestly I don't know if I can act normal after this day. I don't know if I were able to share my inner myself to anyone again. If I will able to accept anyone again. 
          Thank you and bye.

Hello to you. Have a great day! You don't need to finish reading this. I just need to let this pain out so please bear with me.
          
          I meet this guy for a long time. I was still in college. Actually graduating guro sa high school naa nami sa usa ka circle of community or org. 
          At first, I dont have any romatic feelings with him. Until such time, we volunteer the same foundation.. We had the chance yo know each other. We got the chance to share our family and life experiences. We got the chance to voice out our ideas and even our deepest dream. 
          As days  goes by, we got the closer than I expect. That's what I thought. That's my mistake. That's what I hope for. That's my dream, to be able to see a future for us. 
          I won't day that is the only one I've talk to. The only one I focus myself to. The only guy that I let my feelings grow. NO. He is not but His the only guy I unintentionly let IN in my small world. My broken, damage but wonderful World. 
          Maybe it was my mistake, to assume, to hope, to give meaning, to look forward, to even dream for the best for the both of us. 
          I've been waiting for him since 2018. I thought we have the same vision and out of no where you have been starting to like this girl on 2018 too. You have confessted your feeling to her on your college graduation while WE celebrate together that day. What are you saying??? What am I???
          The sad part was my friend who knows how deep, how sincer my feeling was. How I am longing for you to tell me your feelings towards me. Never told me that you lay your feelings for her. What am I so pose to feel? delighted? happy for the both of you or even jud for you?
          Even though my friend can never reciprocate your feelings. Even though he always push you and me together. And no matter how much I want to justify her action. IT HURTS so bad!!
          How can you act so fine infrot of me my? 
          How can you not tell me that he likes you? 
          How can you keep your mouth shot after witnessing my tears? 
          How can you do tjhis to me.
          How My?

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