crizzasword

Hi Fritz!
          	
          	I can name you here. I'm sure you're not here because you don't like reading. I don't know if you were truly genuine or was I just a distraction. But, It hurts me more when I realize how I had it badly because you were the first person I think of telling when I get excited about something and I kinda wanna tell you how disappointing it has been but all I can do is take a deep breath and message everyone else but you. I'll be fine, but sometimes, on nights like this, I sit as it hurts and think about how come my heart is breaking for someone I wasn't in love with.

crizzasword

Hi Fritz!
          
          I can name you here. I'm sure you're not here because you don't like reading. I don't know if you were truly genuine or was I just a distraction. But, It hurts me more when I realize how I had it badly because you were the first person I think of telling when I get excited about something and I kinda wanna tell you how disappointing it has been but all I can do is take a deep breath and message everyone else but you. I'll be fine, but sometimes, on nights like this, I sit as it hurts and think about how come my heart is breaking for someone I wasn't in love with.

crizzasword

lol di na gyud nako feel na crush nako si truman pero makakatawa ko kada sungogon hahahh wa na man ko gikilig hahahahha ambot oy wa gani ko pake who he likes and such o gagohon ba sya hahahahah di lang sab ko kaingon di na nako sya crush kay malingw ra sab ko sungogon bisan wa na ko kiliga

crizzasword

I thought I have gotten over being the gifted burnt out kid. But to met someone who knew me as someone who excelled when I was younger, and that certain someone is a wallflower enough that I don't even remember. That someone is the one excelling now, and here I am still picking up the pieces of shattered potential, searching the trash for opportunities I've wasted and still throwing some more in the trash. It is a different kind of hurt.

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Also adding my growing body dysmorphia. And the I search the girl I've used to be friends with in Elementary whose full name and face I've forgotten, growing pretty and having the body I've jump the bridge to have. It's a shitty feeling so happy valentines' day!
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crizzasword

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This time around I will be in the process of forgiving my self. Tagal na pala, inaamin ko naman na mali ko before but I never had any full accountability of it. I'd always say kasi ganito o ganyan, I was wrong. There are still thoughts, oo, where I am defending myself . But this time around I will be fully accountable of what I did and how I did it. It was all for fucking revenge and I hurt a lot of people including myself. Looking back, I sounded really ridiculous trying to clean my name. I was wrong, no matter what, I was wrong.