if i am not my scars,
then what am i?
                  i am not a poet
                  or a writer
                  or a painter.
i am not a saint
or a sinner.
                  i am not the person
                  i want to be.
i am words on a page.
i am weight on a scale.
i am a face in the mirror.
                  i am the scars on my skin
                  that were caused by
                  my own hand,
while living a life
i don't want to live.  -s.j.b