so basically i hurt the most important person in my life really badly. she comes above most of my family, and i really screwed our friendship up this time. she says that she's forgiven me and she thinks we're friends again, but she really doesn't know. i'm physically sick from hurting her like this, and even though it was accidental, the guilt won't go away. i feel like everything will never be the same between us and its killing me. she flat out told me i lost her trust, and i don't blame her. i'm a horrible person and friend.