cryfrless

no one wanted to play with me as a little kid
          so i've been scheming like a criminal ever since 
          to make them love me and make it seem effortless 
          this this the first time i've felt the need to confess 
          and i swear 
          i̶’̶m̶ ̶o̶n̶l̶y̶ ̶c̶r̶y̶p̶t̶i̶c̶ ̶a̶n̶d̶ ̶m̶a̶c̶h̶i̶a̶v̶e̶l̶l̶i̶a̶n̶ (i’m just like this and i did that) 'cause i care
          

i’ve been wonderin' about what you're up to 
          not for the first time 
          not for the last time 
          and i've been thinkin' 'bout the things we used to do 
          not for the first time 
          not for the last time 

have you seen how my life's been going? 
          'cause i've been wondering what you'd say 
          would you have told me to keep going 
          or would you say to walk away? 
          you always made me feel much better 
          and i'll always be grateful for that

they say bitter ends turn sweet in time 
          is that true of yours and mine?
          'cause if you're lonely in chicago 
          you can call me baby 
          has it been long enough that you can forgive me?
          just because it didn't work 
          doesn't mean it's meaningless to me 
          

even on my worst day, did i deserve, babe
          all the hell you gave me? 
          'cause i loved you, i swear i loved you 
          'til my dying day
          i didn't have it in myself to go with grace 
          and you're the hero flying around, saving face 
          
          - for you 

it will be a year since you left and to be honest, i don't know how i remembered. i saw a phrase "it's funny, but i couldn't even tell you how many years it's been since my mother died, i just erased that information." and that's exactly how i feel about you; i just forget that you died and when i remember, i cry for minutes and even hours without stopping. i know that in recent years we haven't been getting along, but i cry with longing to be daddy's little girl again, i cry for the good times we had in childhood, and i cry because you left without us even returning to the old times. so much has happened since you've been gone, i met a girl, she's amazing, im in love, i know you wouldn't approve, but she makes me the happiest person in the world, we've been dating for 4 months, but i can't even talk to her about you, i just can't talk to anyone about you in my "new life," no one would understand. 

o wattpad simplesmente parou de atualizar o capítulo mais recente que eu li ???? eu entro em um comentário de alguém que me respondeu em um capítulo anterior e n aparece mais a opção de ir p capítulo que eu tinha parado de ler antes  sem or

oi queen

eu cheguei numa parte MUITO importante da fanfic e descobri que a autora não atualiza há muito tempo. eu vou me m 

BURRA BURRA BURRA