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The Amazing Digital Circus episode 9 trailer is CRAZY!!!!
          
          What is wrong with my poor baby Jax :(
          
          I'm so worried for all of the members cause they all looked so sad, and Jax was GLITCHING???!!!
          
          Sadly, episode nine is not going to be aired in any cinemas around me so I'm sad about that but from June 4th to June 19th I'll have to stay off tiktok to avoid being spoiled.
          
          I've honestly never been so scared for an episode in my life. Episode 8 was scary, but this might be even more nerve racking.

What if grover has a grey streak in his hair too bc he felt all the stress and pain that percy did while holding up the sky 
          
          What if when everybody else assumed percy was dead grocer knew he was ok and held out hope (tho he was probably fatigued bc percy was out for 2 weeks)
          
          What if when percy whent missing grover and annabeth were almost inseparable holding onto the hope that if he was gone grover would feel it what if bc of hara wiping percys memory grover couldnt get through to him via dreams but once the mist is lifted they talk a lot during dreams 
          
          What if when percy and annabeth fall into tartarus grover just stoped dead in his tracks he just knew somthing was deeply wrong what if when camp received that note ftom annabeth it was the worst thing that could have happnd to grover he felt so much of what happened in tartarus but couldnt see abyof it like he couldnt sleep and was physically ill until they made it out 
          
          When they do make it out of tartarus grover feels such a wave of relief he passses out

Y'all, omg, I'm so frustrated right now.
          
          
          So last year, for Christmas, i ordered a binder and tried it on.
          It was too big and fit like a loose top. I was so mad that day.
          
          So this year, for my birthday, I ordered a binder online.
           (My birthday was days ago, btw)
          And today, it finally came in the mail.
          
          I tried it on.
          It doesn't fucking fit.
          It's WAYYYYY too small.
          It's like holding a wash cloth to your chest.
          
          It doesn't even fit around my chest.
          
          All I could do was just sit there and cry.
          I can just never have good things anymore.
          

Y'all, gender dysphoria just hit harder than my last depression episode :(
          
          I genuinely need good advice, like apart from "bind your chest" and "Wear more masculine clothes."
          
          I'm Trans (ftm), and if you guys have any advice on how to handle dysphoria (even just a little bit), please feel free to let me know :)
          
          Also, my mom and I went shopping today for clothes cause I have grown out of most of mine, and she was leading me over to the boys section.
          She was pointing out certain jackets and tops and saying, "Well, what about these? This looks nice!" And I was just standing there like bursting with joy because instead of taking me straight to the girls section like she always does, she took me to the boys section.
          I think either maybe she's caught on, or she's just taking me there because I mentioned it last time we went shopping, but ig I'm fine with either.
          
          Yeah, so I ended up walking out of that shop with some clothes that looked like half of them would be something that Richie Tozier would wear and the other half Eddie Kaspbrack's style :D
          
          Anyway, how have you guys been? :)
          

Lmao my mom viewed my temu list and saw all the trans things I added to my list for my birthday.
          I was standing right there and I was so nervous but her face... I couldn't tell whether or not she was smiling or disgusted.
          Either way, she hasn't questioned me or said anything about it so ig I'm in the clear for now.

Guys, I think I have the perfect way to come out to my mom.
          
          So my birthday is coming up soon, and my mom said I need to find stuff I want for my birthday, so she said that I could look online for things.
          
          She said I could add things that I want to cart, and she would view them later, so I'm low-key happy about that because I could just put a bunch of trans stuff like a flag, pins, a hoodie, etc.
          
          Of course, not everything I put in the cart will be things with the trans flag, but I will try to drop hints.
          Then, when she asks about it, I come out to her.
          
          BOOM! :D
          
          The only problem is if she questions me about it in front of my family or if she shows one of my other family members and asks what the flag means.
          
          Either way, I can only hope this goes well. I'm really nervous :/

Y'all, I'm in a bit of a situation here...
          
          I finally think I might be ready to come out to my family as trans (ftm), but I don't know how to do it.
          I nearly came out to my older sibling last night, but then my mom walked in, and I just kinda lost confidence.
          But I'm just getting really tired of being misgendered and deadnamed.
          When I first ever came out to them and said I thought I was bigender, they never really took me seriously, but I guess that was because I was young and I didn't really talk with them about how I wanted to be called a different name and set of pronouns.
          Though my mom did once use my preferred name at a shop for one of my orders.
          I'm like 80% sure my mom supports trans people, I don't know about my grandmother, but my little sister definitely knows smth is up, though I don't think she understands what trans is. My other siblings and I don't have a close relationship, so idk how they would react. All I know is that I want to come out and tell my family about me being trans before my birthday. 
          Another issue is that when I identified as bigender and I told my mom, she went ahead and told the rest of my extended family. I only found out because she came into my room that day and said, "Oh (person's name) supports you!"
          
          I think they might take me more seriously this time because I'm way older than I was (I told them I thought I was bigender 3 years ago.) Of course I don't identify as bigender now, I identify as trans and instead of using she/they like I did three years ago, I use he/him.
          But I guess I should just get it over and done with and hope for the best.
          So if any of Y'all have any advice or an idea on how I could come out, don't be afraid to let me know <3
          

Y'all, it happened again...

Y'all, I think there's something seriously wrong with me...
          Today, in class, I was just zoning out like I always do (I've been disassociated almost permanently since I was little).
          Anyway, I was just zoning out like usual, but then i started feeling real (like I was in my body).
          Obviously, this shocked me and made me feel uncomfortable (because I've always felt detached from my body and have gotten used to feeling that way), but this time, i felt like I was actually me and like I was actually present in the moment.
          It felt really weird.
          Then, my head started feeling heavy, and I started getting really light-headed and dizzy.
          I was like 'wait wtf no' because I felt like i was going to pass out, and that would have been really embarrassing in the middle of class.
          Anyway, I felt like a massive pressure behind my eyes and around my eyes, and my lips were tingling. It also felt like someone was trying to pry my mouth open. I started to see my surroundings get blurry and almost fade away, which creeped me out.
          My stomach kept getting these massive weird feelings (like when you drop on a roller-coaster), and my heart kept beating really fast and wouldn't slow down.
          I felt really cold even though it was hot today, and I started shivering.
          I was breathing fine and stuff, but my consciousness kept alternating between feeling like I was disconnected from my body, to being aware and present.
          My teacher sat down next to me, and he was like, "Are you okay?" 
          The strange thing was I tried to tell him I was fine, but I physically couldn't speak and I was on the verge of crying, so a girl in my class (she's a big empathy btw) asked to bring me to the office and we went there.
          I felt shakey the whole time, and my movements were like shakey, too.
          The rest of the day, I felt like I was just on autopilot (like I was watching myself do everything)
          Things like this have happened before multiple times, just not as bad as this.
           

Y'all...
          
           today I went shopping with my family and I decided to wear my tail and mask because i was going to a trampoline park afterwards with my friends. i was just buying snacks, and then i saw another person wearing gear in the aisle next to me!
          I complimented them, and we chatted for a while before they had to go.
          
          Later on, I saw a goth person and I wanted to compliment them, but they were in a small store crowded by heaps of people and they had their friends with them so I couldn't go up to them without feeling anxious :(
          
          After that, I saw an alt friend group. One of them was scene, the other was emo, and the other was goth. But they were in a small store as well, and there were heaps of people in the store.
          
          I never see alt people around the place where I live, so I was happy to see them :D