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Two classmates got into a fight, I got pushed on the shoulder while literally just sitting there watching everything go down, and then I LASHED OUT SO BADLY/LOUDLY IN FRONT OF EVERYONE because the push was the final straw and the noise was driving me insane.
          
          Everyone just stared at me because apparently I’m known as the kindest and quietest kid in the room, so watching me suddenly lose my sh*t was probably a whole character development moment for them.
          
          Then my anxiety kicked in, my hands started shaking like crazy, I got embarrassed as hell, and I went home as fast as I could.
          
          What a f*cking day. 💀
          
          Absolutely fantastic. 10/10 experience. Would NOT recommend.

Hello everyone! Just a little announcement!
          
          I just wanted to let you guys know that The Sweet Coffee will probably be unpublished. I don’t know when exactly, but honestly, it just doesn’t make sense to me anymore. I’ve had the urge— like, REALLY strong urge— to rewrite the whole thing. Plus, I kinda forgot the plot. LOL.
          
          I also need to fix the character developments, especially Pond, Phuwin, and the other characters. Looking back, their personalities don’t even match from the beginning to the end, and it annoys me so much. I think my mental health at the time affected the story a LOT, and now that I’ve realized it, I really want to fix it properly.
          
          Also, I swear watching Me and Thee affected the heck out of my writing. At first I laughed about it, but now I’m just sitting here like… Why did I write them like that??
          
          So, if you still want to read the current version, GO READ IT because I might unpublish it any day, week, month, second, or whenever the hell I decide. 😹
          
          BUT DON’T WORRY! I WILL REPUBLISH IT! ❣️ And this time, it’ll include Book 2, which isn’t out yet!
          
          That’s all. Thank you for understanding! ❣️

Hiii how were your exams:)

Something’s coming out sooner than expected? :0000

Okay... GOOD NEWS!
          
          So, I've made a plan!
          
          If I manage to finish one of my books completely, I'll immediately publish it once all the chapters are done and ready.
          
          But if I haven't finished the others by then, that means I'll have to publish them by the end of New Year.
          
          Basically, I'm going to work on everything as much as I can during my free time, and whichever book gets finished first will be the first one to be out.
          
          So... Let's hope I can actually finish something before my brain gets destroyed by school again.
          
          I'll be honest with y'all, I've already made so many drafts, chapters, and completely different plots, but then writer's block attacks me out of nowhere and I end up abandoning the stories halfway through.
          
          It's so damn annoying because I actually want to finish them, but my brain suddenly goes, "Nope. Not today."
          
          By the way, I miss you guys so much. I hope you're all doing well! I really miss talking to you and sharing my stories with you all. Hopefully, I'll be back soon! 

I genuinely feel bad about coming back after New Year, but I hope you all understand that I'm still young, and I need to focus on finishing school first.
          
          I really do feel bad.
          
          Like... A lot.
          
          My heart actually aches while writing this announcement because I know some of you have been waiting for my updates, Book 2s, and new stories. I hate making you all wait, and if I could somehow clone myself into one version that studies and another that writes fanfics all day... Trust me, I would.
          
          But right now, school has to come first.
          
          That doesn't mean I've given up on writing. Not at all.
          
          I'm still thinking about my stories almost every day, writing down random ideas whenever I can, and planning scenes in my head during class (don't tell my teachers).
          
          I'll still update you guys about my life whenever I have the chance, even if it's just a small announcement to let you know I'm still alive.
          
          Thank you for always being so patient with me, especially to my older followers who have watched me disappear... Come back... Disappear again... And somehow still stay.
          
          I truly appreciate every single one of you.
          
          Please wait for me a little longer.
          
          I'll come back with more stories, more chaos, and hopefully with writer's block finally leaving me alone.

•BAD NEWS... I THINK?•
          
          Okay...
          
          So basically...
          
          I don't know if this is a stupid idea or not...
          
          But I think I'll be back after New Year.
          
          Uh...
          
          Yeah.
          
          So basically, hypothetically...
          
          School hates me.
          
          Term 1 isn't even over yet, and it's already beating my ass.
          
          I'll be honest with you guys.
          
          I'm a pretty competitive person.
          
          Kind of like Phuwin...
          
          Except when it comes to academics.
          
          The moment I failed three subjects, I genuinely wanted the ground to open up and swallow me whole.
          
          AND THE WORST PART?
          
          My Science teacher looked like she was about to cry because almost our entire class failed the test.
          
          I felt so bad.
          
          So now I really need to focus on those three subjects.
          
          Which means...
          
          I have literally no time to write.
          
          Like...
          
          NO TIME.
          
          My daily routine has become:
          
          Sleep.
          
          Eat.
          
          Study.
          
          Drink water.
          
          Read.
          
          Then somehow end up watching YouTube for three hours straight.
          
          Congratulations.
          
          The author has successfully done everything except writing.
          
          So here's my plan.
          
          When December comes and we finally have our school break...
          
          I'm going to speedrun my books like my life depends on it.
          
          I'll try my best to finish as many chapters as I can, and if everything goes well...
          
          Boom.
          
          They'll be published after New Year.
          
          I WANT TO BE HONEST.
          
          I actually feel really bad about this.
          
          Like...
          
          Really bad.
          
          Because I genuinely miss you guys.
          
          I miss writing.
          
          I miss watching PondPhuwin.
          
          I miss being active.
          
          But I just can't right now because school has been taking up almost all of my time.
          
          And another thing I've realized about myself...
          
          Social media honestly isn't very good for my mental health.
          
          That's why I haven't really seen PondPhuwin for such a long time now.
          
          I miss them a lot.
          
          But right now, I need to focus on school and on getting myself through this semester.
          
          I'll be back.
          
          I promise.
          
          Thank you for always waiting for me, even when I disappear like a side character in my own fanfics.
          
          I love you all, and I'll see you after New Year.

Hello everyone! ❣️
          
          How are you all doing?
          
          I haven’t seen PondPhuwin since May 25. I’ve been away from social media because of my mental health and school, so I honestly have no idea what’s happening in the fandom anymore.
          
          I know some of you have been waiting for Book 2, but I still haven’t been able to start writing it because school has been keeping me incredibly busy.
          
          I’m actually working on another new story whenever I have free time, but writing has been much slower than before.
          
          It’s kind of funny because a few months ago, my arm hurt from typing on a screen for hours...
          
          Now my arm hurts from writing on actual paper.
          
          School has been giving us so many assignments, and to make things even better, I somehow ended up in a group where some of my classmates keep throwing all the leadership and work onto me...
          
          Even though I’m literally dumber than a rock.
          
          Life has been overwhelming lately, but I’m still here. I’m still writing whenever I can, and I haven’t given up on my stories.
          
          Thank you for waiting for me and for always supporting my little imagination world. I really appreciate every single one of you.
          
          I’ll be back. ❣️

Guys.
          
          Jesus Christ.
          
          Tomorrow is the start of school.
          
          And oh my God, my anxiety is beating my ass right now.
          
          My hands have been cold since morning, and I genuinely don't know how to calm down.
          
          Just three days ago, I was complaining about rewriting Love because it was taking so freaking long.
          
          NOW?
          
          My introvert self has decided to wake up and choose violence.
          
          My biggest concern isn't even school.
          
          It's writer's block.
          
          I literally have around 28 drafts that I never finished because writer's block jumped me in an alleyway and left me there.
          
          Twenty. Eight. Drafts.
          
          TWENTY-EIGHT.
          
          Some of them are probably collecting dust and wondering why their author abandoned them.
          
          And now that school is starting, I'm worried it'll happen again.
          
          So if my stories aren't as good as I want them to be when they're published in November, please understand that I'm trying my best.
          
          Lately I've been feeling overwhelmed, anxious, stressed, and my introvert bastard self keeps acting like stepping into school is a boss battle.
          
          If I had magic powers, I'd fly away.
          
          Unfortunately, the future is calling my ass, and I am NOT trying to end up on the streets while still writing fanfics at 3 AM.
          
          So school it is.
          
          Wish me luck.
          
          Because I'm gonna need it. 

Hello everyone!
          
          Thank you so much for 204 followers. I honestly don’t even know what to say— I’m genuinely so shocked. Like… Really shocked.
          
          I’m just so happy and so grateful. Thank you to everyone who has been here since the very beginning, supporting me and my stories, and to all my new followers— thank you so much for being here too! It truly means a lot to me. ❣️❣️❣️
          
          Even though I’m still on hiatus (lol… Classic me), seeing your support makes me really happy and motivates me to keep writing.
          
          I hope to see you all again soon. Thank you for staying, for waiting, and for supporting my little imagination world of PPW. ❣️