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@hemlox 
            I-
            send it to me as well , SHAREEEE

so yes , bcz of my past relationships with people I somehow always feel like I’m......inadequate ig ? or I won’t keep your interest for long if I’m not over the top sweet , like you might just get bored of me and those feels occasionally hit me like a truck and those are my very frequent ‘mood drops’. It took me a bit of time to come to terms with the fact that you’re not like them , you won’t hurt me , I don’t have to worry about being less than ...... I can just ...... be myself like I always have been and I hope despite all my flaws you’ll continue to love me 

it feels weird to talk about my feelings  , I never trust myself to but only one person is gonna read this and ...... I know you won’t judge me for it, or think I’m selfish for it , or get mad at me for it 

and the man I fell for will only ever be koji nakajima, him and only him. the only one who didn’t use me , who didn’t treat me like a 2nd choice , I don’t deserve him I really don’t but I’m never letting go 

so so tired 

I’m tired 

why so I say I’m fine when there’s tears running down my face