Kai

Hello!! Thank you to everyone who vfv/f4f!! I've been offline for a while but I will go ahead and get right to it!!

Vfv? F4f?

Oof te hot cheetos... RIP me. My entire FACE s BURNlNG :3

@sissydal Will do. Give me like 30 minutes

Having the most brutal identity crisis rn. Lol... not really... I'm tired of the body disphoria

Today has been kinda deep tbh. Life's hitting me pretty hard right now too. This isn't a vent or anything. All I wanted to say is, it's going to be okay. I want you all to know that no matter what, I am rooting for you<3

I just wanted to say this to all of my friends. I love you. I love you all so much. I know I said that I hold grudges but the reality is, I can't. I suck at grudges. And nothing you ever say or do or want or love can make me not love you. I support you all, throughout all of your interests and beliefs. I need you to know that you are all beautiful. In fact, when I first started coming to this school, some of my first thoughts were that all of you were so gosh darn pretty. Like an indescribable kind of pretty, and it hurts me knowing that you may never see your true beauty. You are all just too amazing. Way too amazing. Sometimes I question if I even deserve it, since all I've known are friendships that fade away in just a year. And, Nat, I love you too. More than you can imagine. The amount of love that I have for you is terrible for my mental health. I stay up late every night just thinking about you, and the thought that I made you cry shatters me. It just completely shatters me. I know, I'm not very good at expressing love, and it's because most of my life, I've been way too clingy. My friends started leaving me because they said I was too needy. So I try to be funny and brighten the mood, and sometimes it seems like I don't care at all. But when I see y'all upset, I fall apart. Completely. In fact, nothing destroys me more. I am trying to learn to express my feelings but, I am afraid. I'm afraid everyone would leave me. My own family get's mad whenever I cry but I try my hardest to just hold everything together, regardless. I am trying so hard to get better, taking medicine, going to therapy, and trying to get more sleep but it's so hard. I just can't think of any world where I can actually open up. But it doesn't matter. I am here for all of you. We can work together towards this. Expressing ourselves, because honestly, we all suck at it. But I'm here for you. I am always seeking to understand, just talk to me. Once again, I love you all.

stawp, someone just said the name Drew and now I'm just even more sad :(

I hate that people cut me off when I'm talking to someone and then just start a whole conversation with the person I was talking to and then I'm just sitting there frustrated bc no one cares about what I want to say. This is why some days I just go silent. I'm so tired of people treating me like this.

https://www.wattpad.com/1501198362-repressed-words-a-short-story/page/2
          
          
          GO READ THIS AWESOME STORY AND VOTE FOR IT!!