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simply being alive has been rough

the fine line for me is the tug of war our brain does when trying to comprehend the coexistence of two opposites. Something our brain isnt programmed to do, revealing a theme of resillience, union, and the corresponding fight for the greater good. Its a defiance of our nature in a rebellious proof of more. The prevelance of the soul. It's everything harry is and everything he believes in. It's an opposition including everything that matters agaisnt all thats been defined for us. That is why it's everything. its a level realness in a way that, in my eyes, none of harrys other songs are even close to possessing. its so down to earth it has the power to catapult you into the sky. 
          
          
          
          fine line is 'everything', fine line is 'and', but it is not 'also' because it is a merging of the two, its not two crayons being used together it is two crayons melted into one but not fully combined so its half one color and half the other. its violent intensity with benevolent intent (pt 2)
          

the reason fine line is profoundly deeper, 'sadder', and more impactful than falling is because fine line is existential. its everything. its none and all and the feelings in how they relate to one another. Its everyone in one specific moment. It's one size fits all. The song doesnt fit on the spectrum, its about the spectrum. It's acceptance and joy and collapse. It's the sequence of the grousome rise, someone whos been buried alive digging out of their grave. Fine line is a miracle to me. It's my interpretation of the ressurection and the closest thing I have to what christians feel on easter sunday. its a contradicton and the idea of expanding comprehension with a lift that gives you the willingness to do so. "You've got my devotion, but man I can hate you sometimes." It's expelling black and white, 'this or that.' Its turning 'all or nothing' into 'all and nothing because arnet they the same thing?' I never understood the title "fine line" when I was younger or even knew what a fine line was but now I realize that that was part of the meaning. The times I spent ignorant to a describable meaning while swimming in the one that counts. While my heart was doing the bleeding desribed in the song, I was looking for a way to desribe it but the only need for expression that matters is just that -the need. Not the devices. Without effort, feelings understand each other. Feelings, perception, and outlook make and break every listening experience, and at that time mine was blasting. He's saying,up and down, here and there, yin and yang, hope and dispair (i ran out of characters -pt 1 is this pt 2 is above ig)
          
          

fine line feels like something being born, being revealed and wholly absorbed by cascading, omnicient light into suffocating, cannibalistic glory

maybe death is the answer

you know what, I fucking hate tiktok and I can't wait for it to be banned. how many times have you spent sobbing on your couch realizing you wouldn't be if you hadn't opened tiktok. fuck that devil 

i just wanna feel better

Hey! Tomorrow’s the day! my Advent calendar book—or as I like to call it, LAdvent calendaRRY—begins! It’s a Larry fanfic (enemies to lovers) with a new chapter every day until December 24th. Available in both English and German. I’m so excited to share this with you! And tell all of your friends, they don‘t wannamiss out on this one! x

I want to hold your hand. I don't mean it to sound weird, I just want to know you're here next to me, as you're so important for me

I fucking hate my stupid face. I keep fantasizing about cutting my cheeks off and my neck and then what it'd look like all open and spilling. Mostly how it'd look better and the relief I'd feel because its gone. I just wanna throw myself away and burn the body. Why am I even here