elijah

hey guys ! sorry for not writing, i've had the worst writers block. i'm going to try posting more <3

you know that moment when someone doesn't even realise that you're looking at them but you are ? and then your heart does stupid fluttery things and you smile to yourself because you wish they could see the way you see them ?

Hey wifey! I hope you're okay, I miss you, I love you <3

Hey wifey! I hope you're having a great day mogliettina <3 if not, that's okay, you're amazing wifey. You're going to get through this, and we're all going to be waiting for you. You're so loved, and you're so amazing. I wish you could see yourself from my point of view (https://youtu.be/nQJEp-k-ogs) 
          
          I'm so tired, I got new glasses a while back but I avoided wearing them bc they were too big, and today we got them tightened. I am like BLIND (more in my left eye). It sorta hurts, like ouch I miss my other ones, even if they had the wrong prescription. OOh and I also finished MoA (finally). Yk I suck, like I always spam people help no one gets on at the same time as me. But yk what hurts? When they respond with one word. Like, ahh I'm overacting. And overthinking. I'm a dumbo. I just- nevermind, it's just a friend of mine.
          
          Well anyways, goodnight mi amore, ti amo <3

Hey wifey! So today, I decided too read a Muslim love story on here! It's... interesting. It's not as bad as I thought it would be, though some parts make my blood boil, it's nice to see something about Muslims written BY Muslims, in an accurate representation in a world where we can actually find happiness. and it isn't just about our limitations. It shows the peace, and I like that. Help I'm ranting, sorry-
          
          I missed you. Well- I miss you. I love you mogliettina, whatever the circumstances, I'm going to be by your side <3
          
          Confession time. Uh- sort of. It's more about something I wanted to say but it's not really something you can bring into a conversation randomly. I love you, mogliettina. However, and I know we've been avoiding talking about it, we don't have to have change. I worry that your feelings will change, but I just want you to know that if that happens, that's okay. We don't have to be plomatic or platonic or romantic or whatever, we just have to be with each other. If you want to see someone else, I'll love and support you. I'm your soulmate, in whatever way, and I'm also your wingman and friend. <3
          
          I don't know why I brought that up, but I just wanted it all out there.
          
          Ti amo. Amo il tuo tutto, con il mio tutto. Tutto ciò che è mio, è tuo. Sei le stelle nel cielo notturno, sei il mio sole <3

Hey wifey! I start school tomorrow, today was my last day of spring break, and I'm loki excited for it! Idk, I miss my friends. At least, those who don't have social medias and don't keep in contact during breaks. Oh and my best irl bestie, I miss talking to her on Fridays to recall the drama and events of the week (and talk about Percy Jackson and me trying to convert her to anime), those were the highlights of my week (besides talking to you <3). I feel like I'm going to regret that help- I also wonder if my homeroom and english teacher will be back, the last week before spring break she sorta pulled a Nico and disappeared and we have no idea where to. They said she wouldn't be back until the end of April, maybe, but idek anymore. I kinda feel like horrible, but I'm also happy (ignoring the stupid feelings) hasjfhda I want to hold hands with someone I'm so weird help- also can I just say, EVERYONE IS SO CUTE HELP. Literally, every person I've ever seen is so cute and I can't anymore, HOW CAN YOU BE SO PRETTY?? I mean, no one can be as pretty as you tho <3 but help they'll all so beautiful idk how I can even exist in the same world as all these gorgeous people- I just, I find something about everyone I'm so helpfhajh hopeless-
          
          I love you wifey, always and forever <3
          
          Ti amo mogliettina, sempre e per sempre <3
          
          Also if I suddenly stop replying, I've fallen asleep-

Hey wifey! I'm so tired I can barely keep awake right now, but I had to wake up to see if you were okay, I love you mogliettina. 
          
          A lot of stuff went down today, and I can't think it through and my mind is buzzing and I'm just lost. At first, it was all belief and trust, and I thought that that was enough. But it's not and I keep on finding out so many things that all lead to this person lying, but idk, I still want to believe, and I'm scared. Ahh, I miss the days when things were easier, when it was just us talking and I didn't have a care in the world besides that.
          
          I'm slowly losing my faith in humanity help-
          
          I love you wifey, always and forever, and we can talk about anything at anytime, anywhere. Nothing you could do would make me love you any less. I know say that a lot, and it's scary to me just how much I mean it. I'll always love you, even if we're not together, there'll always be that part of me that just wants to be with you and hug you.
          
          I feel like I'm letting everyone down, I feel like I've lost myself and everything that was one the truth is now unfolding into a barrel of lies and I'm not going to be on the right side, in the end.
          
          Ti amo mogliettina. Quando dico sempre e per sempre, intendo sempre e per sempre. Sei la persona più importante per me e ho paura di deluderti.

Hey wifey! I’m so sorry for worrying you, I love you so much and you’re my everything, always and forever. I’m shaken up still, and I don’t know why because it’s been hours since it happened, I just feel so weird. But when I’m with you it gets better, and I love you so much mogliettina.
          
          Ti amo mia bella moglie, sempre e per sempre. Sei la luce e l'amore della mia vita. Sei la mia anima gemella plomantica e ti amerò per sempre. <3

Hey wifey! Ahh, I feel weird, like I feel like I wanna run a marathon and be super loud, but I'm also so quiet and I don't have any energy help-
          
          I love you so much, in both ways, in all ways, and for always (idk why I keep saying that, I like that it rhymes lol) and I wish I could take you away from all the darkness in the  world, to a place where we could be whoever we wanted, and there'd be rainbows and libraries and blue food and we could have a secret garden, where we'd go and read books and sing horribly, where you could practice your acting and idk- just have fun with you and hold you close.
          
          I'm so proud of you! You're amazing wifey, and I know I say it a lot, but you're seriously so cool and awesome, and beautiful and perfect, and I love you so much <3
          
          Ti amo mogliettina, sempre e per sempre <3
          
          (also I'm watching HIMYM and I always think of you because I know that you like it as well, HELP-)
          
          https://youtu.be/RSXiNSiiCsg

Hey wifey! I'm honestly so scared right now, I think I might be catching feelings for someone, even though I know we can never be more than friends, I feel a twinge of hurt and jealousy whenever they talk to this other person and I hate myself for it. And then, I keep thinking that maybe I'm not actually catching feelings and this is just a phase and it's never going to be anything more and it really is just friendship and I'm only going to ruin everything, so I'm gonna keep my mouth shut... ahhh, why are feelings so confusing, I wish I could be more upfront with them. I can't tell you who it is, but I love you wifey and I'm so happy everyday that you're in my life <3
          
          I hope you had a great day! Especially with the science girl <3
          
          Je t'aime femme, toujours et pour toujours. Tu es tout pour moi. <3
          
          https://youtu.be/woHBx_C6duQ