𝓟𝓻𝓲𝓷𝓬𝓮𝓼𝓼 𝓒𝓪𝓭𝓮𝓷𝓮𝓵𝓵𝓪

Wonderful gift mrs cade!

So you were the last thing I thought of before just powering off and sleeping ZzZz

I feel like I can't and I have absolutely no motivation at all and I'm so tired I feel like I'm going to collapse any minute now but I don't wanna move

Anyways I was meant to write but I just can't.

Bro my friend was upset so I tried talking to her and then I said how I wanted to be at school as well (she texted me saying that whilst we were texting) because like everyone was beefing and she was like "I have it way worse" and I was like... um... I NEVER MADE THIS BE A COMPETITION.. and then I was Ik... and then she was like Alina all I'm saying is that you should be grateful that you have older siblings and a mum and dad. I NEVER SAID I WASN'T GRATEFUL AND IM SORRY BUT HONESTLY IT'S REALLY NOT ALL THAT. I'D WANNA BE THE OLDEST TBH. I HATE BEING THE YOUNGEST BECAUSE ITS DEPRESSING AND ESPECIALLY WITH MY FAMILY, HAVING OLDER SIBLINGS RN IS SO SAD FOR ME BECAUSE I'M JUST WATCHING EACH ONE GROW UP AND LEAVE. And like girl?? Yes I know you have a lot of family stuff and YOU'VE TOLD ME and I KNOW my shit isn't as big as yours but I NEVER made it a competition. 
          
          I was just trying to comfort her like she did to me LAST WEEK. Like bro?? What did I do vro? WHEN I WAS UPSET LAST WEEK, I STARTED TALKING ABOUT HOW PROUD I WAS OF HER FOR STAYING STRONG AFTER WHAT she HAS BEEN THROUGH AND I FORGOT ALL ABOUT THE SHIT I WAS CRYING ABOUT. THE WHOLE CONVO STARTED GOING TOWARDS HER STUFF.

I'm not sure I say this enough but I love Gracie Abrams: 
          
          Yeah her music is incredible, yeah she's nice, but she's got a heart. A REAL ONE. She just dropped a song on an app called Bandcamp that I had to pay 5 dollars for but the proceeds go to school shooting awareness. Like this girl speaks out whenever she can on whatever she can: racism, homophobia, school shootings, the government, Palestine. Like I say I love Gracie, and I do. I aspire to be her kind of human. She just loves, that's all she does. And because of that I love her. She's incredible and I want to be like her one day.

It lowk rhymes

LINA DIVA

Its a bit shit but yk

I THOUGHT OF A NICKNAME THAT U COULD CALL ME