♡Ollie♡

Wow I haven't been on here in like two years. I'm about to turn 21 in August, Ive been working in a hospital as a NA for almost a year, moved out of my sisters in July 2022, and my boyfriend and I are hopefully having our first baby in 2025.  I'm stable, happy, managing. Off psych medication entirely except St John's Wort 1-2 times daily, Ive been through so much the last year and a half. 
          
          I'm currently grieving the loss of another patient except this one I fully witnessed Thursday morning, a mycotic aneurysm, which is rare but heartbreaking my patient was part of the small percentage of people it happens to, and no they will not wake up. I love my job, but this is one of the hardest things I have to cope with. It's not often I lose patients or have code blues, I don't work on a critical care unit, but when it happens and Ive known them for a while or had them for a few nights, it hits and it hits HARD. 
          
          

WACK 
          
          I graduate highschool June 1st and I start college in the fall, that and I've been with my boyfriend for almost a year and a half, his bday is in June and I'm just so excited. Finally on the perfect medications and still struggling with selfharmm but I'm doing okay!  

Awooga, I never use wattpad anymore lol. Still with my boyfriend, turning 18 on the 12th and I'm desperate to move out ackk

Wow I never post on here or use wattpad anymore. Hi? Done lost my virginity on the 29th and been dating my guy best friend since December 5th :))

Can wattpad not fucking do that to my cover photo thanks 

turned 17 yesterday, been going through a shit breakup since the 18th but im doing good! dyed my hair pink today :))

oh yeah totally forgot to post anything but I got my learners permit the beginning of march and i like really miss drivers ed. im stressed out over home stuff tho and things with friends so idk. but im doing a bit better, been clean from self harm since march 26th. 

Current mood: the mole from Bambi who pops up and says "Mornin' fellas"

im hella overwhelmed :(

2nd semester started Friday and honestly I'm fine with all my classes except drivers ed. Mentally im not ready for it because ive had like no time to process the car accident back in September, but my sisters basically making me do it. 
          
          
          We go to the damn driving range tomorrow for orientation and Im not prepared. I havent ridden a schoolbus in like 2 years and since I cant have my phone so therefore no music, Im gonna be even more stressed. 
          
          Legally, as part of my IEP, Im allowed to listen to music, but I cant do this in drivers ed...