collie

so much so for maturing, uhm
          
          hi, hello, im back and im reviving this? somewhat? i guess?
          so long story short i realised that trying to cut away from things that dont represent me anymore via creating new accounts is actually kinda stupid, uh, i guess i didnt want to delete the things i have on here but i also didn't want them up because "what if someone finds me that way???" and then i realised, what if they find me that way.
          not everyone is going to actively look into my account and my presence is determined by their investment or boredom, and if my shitty old fanfics are what makes them happy or avoidant of me, what will i do about it?
          i could just delete or archive them on a separate account but that seems so much more effort than it's really worth,
          ill clean this up a tiny bit but it'll only really be stating that its old and not representative of my skills and just really there for archival reasons.
          
          uhm idk if any actually saw my old posts or my "departure" post but ill keep it up for context sakes (its kind of funny as well, funny in a sad sense because i convinced myself that writing fanfics in the most obnoxious ways wont help me learn, even though it does because i can narrow down ideas in a more tightknit way but im rambling.)
          
          as much of a yapper that i am, im cutting it short
          tldr; im back, but like, in a low key way, ill fix up some stuff and im changing my username, just so you know, i was ranox (name now belongs to an oc), lolxehtm, whatever the fuck i went by in my fnf phase and my alias now is collie
          
          if anything last minute pops up ill put in the comments, if you see this just type your favourite colour just so i know im not talking to the void or whatever idk
          kbye

hello everyone 
          
          im moving to this account:
          https://www.wattpad.com/user/MTHEXLOL
          
          
          i deeply apologise for the current lack of activity on here. i want to apologise for not getting stuff done and actually posting it, 
          
          low self-esteem for my writing style is a massive factor; it's actually rather simple, but i felt that it was too simple
          so i usually overcomplicate my writing and over saturate adjectives, trying to sound smart but end up coming off as too haunty as well as making it not too pleasant to read, so im sorry for that. 
          
          also lack of motivation; i've tried multiple to create a story, but it always ended up being so stiff and lethargic, or that i never finish it at all, ever, and it's there to just rot and be forgotten. im sorry for that. 
          
          so i'm sorry for being a lackluster writer, so im leaving this account to start again, this will be left to rot and ill start fresh again; this account will be kept up as an archive account though for anyone who wants to read any of this (not the tmc one, that fandom ruined my life for months ngl) 
          
          also worth noting, i now primarily use ao3 for writing fanfiction so if you wanna see the new ones first:
          https://archiveofourown.org/users/xlol
          
          dont worry, ill use wattpad, just not as often, and ill post only misc stuff on here like under 1000 words fanfics or headcanon/artbook stories 
          
          sorry if this seems over dramatic, i just wanna come clean and mature over my insecurities(kinda) 
          
          i had fun but my feed is just infested with old fandoms and cringe shit ive done for the past year or 2, as well as works that doesnt represent me anymore lol 
          
          goodbye on this account, say hello to my new one though if you wanna :)

Hey hey! 
          
          if ya'll are tired of the lack of content from me than im sorry :(((
          i gonna start trying to have less of a social media presence and posting and updating stuff slower than before due to some important school stuff coming up so no more fanfics from me, soz :(
          
          im also gonna start focusing on art more than writing stuff so everything that i have rn is gonna be put on a heavy hiatus that may last for like a month or so, again sorry for this interruption for fanfics, it's just gonna be some art stuff for now
          
          if you wanna see art, you can take a look at my twitter: https://twitter.com/mthexlmfao
          or my insta(will be less active on there tho):
          https://www.instagram.com/mth3xlol/
           
          ill post the same stuff on each website to choose wisely between either a hellhole or a constant annoyance lmao
          
          again sorry once again! but hey, at least you know a bit more about my persona if you look at my twitter so it aint bad
          
          happy halloween! 
          tldr: my costume is that i am your dad

Alrighty! No more quoting songs bullshit anymore lmao
          
          anyways hello everyone! so sorry to the tmc fans who was disappointed in my departure from the tmc fandom but interests goes away and we move on, no worries! so sorry though lol
          
          however, ill try to bring some more fanfics to fill the dead air, however with me moving up a grade, progress will be slow and motivation will be put into schoolwork lmao
          
          so sorry if im so slow, i just recently trashed the overhyped fnf one because i just realise i overhyping a fucking slow burner how stupid am i bruh, but no worries, ill actually start doing shit when i finally force my hand but until then, itll be nothing from me, no more tmc or headcanons books or fanfic rn folks, sorry for the disruption :( 
          
          also i got really tired to quoting shit so no more of that lol
          
          anyways, happy halloween/october! stay safe out there skaters :)))

 ' ' CAN'T HELP BUT FEEL LIKE YOU BELONG HERE ' '
          
          heyyyyy alllllll!!!!! how yall doing? ive recently released a ao3 fanfic which was a side project to distract me from school and exams and all that bullshit
          its tmc !!! and if you seen me write something on there no you havent its a group hallucination, the mandela effect if you will
          heres the link! i really proud of it even though its a slow burn, like really sloe you would not believe it:
          https://archiveofourown.org/works/41792595
          ill write a second chapter but i forgot to make it uncompleted so people know that it just didnt end there sorry!!!!!
          
          but yeah, it maybe be slow cuz like im sick loooooollllll, ill update the fic to give people over the notice lmao
          
          oh and ill upload it onto here if you dont like ao3 for some reason (coward) just let me make a cover then ill post it onto here lol
          
          but yeah, see ya lol

' ' BUT I CAN'T SEEM TO FIND ONE WHERE YOU LOOK, HOW I REMEMBER ' '
          
          Yello!!! i'm back from the trip! well the return from the trip was like 3 weeks ago but still, i spent the rest just resting and sleeping cuz i wanna rest rather than spend so much working and slaving away on a fanfic that i may hate later on
          don't worry i am working on it,
          
          i have a new year coming up with more stress and work so im taking my time to rest from the previous year and get myself ready for the next one.
          no worries, im fine though lol. i just wanna make a small little update so that NO ONE THINKS I'M DEAD DON'T WORRY IM ALIVE AND LIVING OFF OF RAW RAMEN STRAIGHT OUT OF PACKET AND COCA-COLA
          
          so yeah, later skaters!

' ' CUS THERE'S NOBODY BETTER THAN YOU ' '
          
          Heyyy all, im not gonna be updating on the big projects(1000+ oneshots) for a bit cuz im over another country for about a week or 2, but i may be working on some shorter content like the headcanon book but then again it'll be slow as i am taking this time to relax from all the school stuff lmao.
          
          but once im back, ill go straight to working on as this relaxation week/s can refill my energy to work again as lately motivation has been almost non-existent lol, hope ill whip up something before the end of summer break!
          
          other than that, later skaters!

' ' STAB MY BACK IT'S BETTER WHEN I BLEED FOR YOU ' '
          
          it's my birthday today(3/5/22)! I've turned a year older today and we've celebrated it with some domino's pizza and chocolate, at least i don't feel extremely tired and want to die inside because some edgy 12 year old instincts lmao, yknow those?
          
          but yeah, the sunrise/drop story is going well with ideas but execution is kinda difficult, another oneshot is coming up but idk when its coming out lol
          
          but yeah that's all i wanted to say
          have a nice day!

' ' YET YOU REFUSE TO LEAVE ' ' 
          
          Heyo guys, I'm wondering about making either a headcanon book or an artbook cuz I have a oneshot in work and was wondering if I could do something much easier.
          
          Would ya'll like to see my artistic skills(example: my pfp)/my weird wacky thoughts about different characters that made jack shit sense for you but seems canon to me that can be consistently updated either daily or hourly or every minute, or just continue making high effort oneshots/stories that takes weeks due to mind boggling some ideas, execution, proof-reading continuously and production so there for you wont see me until like 6 years later.
          
          Either way, you guys can tell me if you guys want to see my concerning thoughts about characters or just slaving away at my computer screen, writing 2 words per week, cuz idk lmao.
          
          That's all, later!

' ' YOU KNOW YOU KNOW WHEN I'LL SEE YOU AGAIN ' '
          
          Hey all! Just gonna say that I'm on a holiday for a week, and that the hotel that I'm staying in has...weak wifi so stories won't be updated for a bit, 
          however, concepts and ideas for stories will be made cuz I'm usually in my head when outside of my house lol.
          Other than that, I'm just gonna enjoy my week long holiday visiting shit and eating fast food with my family if ya'll don't mind lol.
          
          Hopefully ya'll don't mind and if you do, suck it.
          See ya'll soon!