@cxnfused-melxdy
It’s been so long since I’ve been active
I’ve missed you guys❤️I was—and still am—dealing with a lot of mental issues. I lost my motivation
I still don’t have much motivation
But I could probably get into some roleplay. It’d have to be interesting. Probably one-on-one
I just wanted to say hi
heyyy ik you from a selection roleplay. @/girlpcwer and i have our own selection-based rp (on my account). we really need more people. would you be interested?? <3
(Trigger warning: mention of suicidal thoughts and attempted suicide)
My boyfriend is suicidal. He has attempted to Jill himself multiple times before I met him and I’ve had to talk him down several times.
I love him. He knows I love him. I don’t understand everything that goes through his head, and I don’t pretend to.
But right now, he knows I’m here. He never explicitly said that he was going to try it tonight, but I know. And he knows I know because I’m sitting on the phone with him, waiting for him to fall asleep. Am I tired? Yeah. But him making it through this moment, this night, is more important to me. I can sleep in
This isn’t me asking for advice. I just needed to say it and no one I know irl is awake to listen
I miss youuuu
@cxnfused-melxdy I am glad you are doing a lot better. That can happen, it can get tasking at times.
@Decembra1998 yeah. Before I stopped coming online, I would take days to respond. 1) I was busy 2) I was sick at the time and 3) I was in a really bad place. I’m doing a lot better now, and roleplay will always be a huge part of me, but it’s more of a past memory than a present hobby
-waves- I dunno if you remember me from Selection roleplays...s e v e r a l years back, but...yeah.
@--kyriaki hi! Yeah, I remember you! I’ve been doing as well as I can be, I suppose. How have you been?
Hey!! Came to drop by and say hi and wish you an awesome day!!
I know I keep apologizing
I just haven’t been okay recently
I don’t know what’s wrong
I’ve just lost all motivation to do anything
I can’t really bring myself to do anything right now
It’s hard to do even the things I enjoy
So
Idk
I just felt like you all deserved an explanation as to why I haven’t been active
@cxnfused-melxdy you don't need to apologise. Hope you'll feel better soon. We love you and we understand.
@cxnfused-melxdy dont apologise, love. we understand and hope that you feel better soon <3
you don’t have to apologize for anything, it’s not your fault and if you feel bad then you should take some time and care for yourself. we all love you and should understand <33
Hey all, sorry for disappearing again
My motivation is almost nonexistent at this point
You’d think that I’d be way more motivated, now that I have all this free time
Nope
So I appreciate your patience with me
I’m baaaaack
Sorry I haven’t been so active, guys. Thank you for any concerned messages. I’ve been dealing with some stuff in my personal life and couldn’t really handle anything more.
I’m back now, and I might not be super active all the time, but I probably won’t disappear for multiple days again.
Thanks all<3
