I know what you mean, you see with me it would be different, 'omg you have nearly 4k fans, you're so popular' no I am not popular. I just have a lot of fans, that is all. 90% of them never message me, 9% message me who can't spell and just because they think I am cool, you don't know me. I cannot be cool just because of how many fans I have. Only 1% of those fans actually messga me and are decent. So if I left and came back, only about three people would miss me.
Nope, I left a while back but didn't deactivate my account.
It's fine, and I'm glad you're getting that warm feeling.