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I think... I’m going to delete both my stories and just start a new one... Should I?! Is this bad?!

So um... I’m taking a break off of ‘Madness Within’ because I am so stressed, nothing seems good enough :(

I just deleted the whole chapter again and decided to rewrite a new for the second time. In total I’ve deleted more the. 10K words... ✌️ I just want to the best for all my readers, like I want it to be enjoyable to read and at first I love the writing. And then the next day I start to passionately hate everything about it... 

“Remus looked back at the boy, both deeply staring at eachother, both in immense thought. 
          
          Remus pulled Sirius in, their noses slightly touching. He inched his mouth towards the boys ears as common words were transformed into sensual phrasing.
          
          ‘I need you’ he whispered ever so softly. A chill spiked through Sirius’ arms as the hairs stood up.”
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          Okay I’ve been writing, here’s a sneak-peek 

I just deleted 5000 words a day ago, now I just deleted the 2000 words I was trying to replace it with. I’m currently crying in my bed rn because I hate my current writing and feel so uninspired. My chapter won’t be able until next week but... it’s finna have more 15k words so...

I- OKAY I NEED TO VENT. I HAVE BEEN HOPELESSLY IN LOVE WITH MT BESTFRIEND FOR GOD KNOWS HOW LONG. And I’m writing rn and I just cannot stop thinking of him, because okay- so last night I had a um... dream about him! And I’m gay, did I mention that. So I’m supposed to like girls, like I really am not interested in really guys like at all.  It when it comes to him, something just- THIS ISNT OKAH AND MT HEART HURTS! Okay I’ll just go back to writing now.