Kyrith Morte

@monkeysaurus-rex she moved to Califorina a while ago. Her dad is in the military. Her dad is usually the only one moving though. But Jay's mom got tired of never seeing her husband. So off they went. I was/am going through some stuff and I didn't say goodbye. I hated to say goodbye to my best friend, my first romantic girlfriend, my savior. So she just left and I planned to never think about her again. Out of sight- check. Out of mind- check. Never to be thought of again- in progress. But she insisted we still be friends. So she texted me everyday. "Good morning beautiful!" Or "tell me if you have any cute nurses today!" Or "goodnight gorgeous" and mostly "answer my fucking texts!" but I never answered. But she'd still fill me in on her days, which were horrible. Having a big mouth in douchey Colorado got you in little to no trouble. But in California everyone took stuff so personally. Jay was only at school for a month before she started to get bullied, not like, some people talk bad about her, like, she was getting beat by students. She had no friends and people broke into her locker, stole her phone and stuff, and filled it dildos. And having a big mouth got her no where. "Oh gross!! I bet these are (the meanest boy's) anal dildos aren't they?? Or are the big ones (meanest girl's) pussy toys? EW!" It eventually got so bad she did it. She went home halfway through the school day, and drank 2 gallons of bleach along with slitting her wrists in the bathtub. She sent me 1 last text: I'll always love you. I'm gonna shine down on you and help you through your stuff. You need a guardian angel Sofs. And I volunteer."
            
            I have never cried so hard in my life the way I do every day since then. It was stupid and selfish of her to do to everyone who loved her. She is my guardian angle I guess, I was cutting but I'm doing it a lot less now. I want to quit so bad, I've also started to eat. I lost 36 pounds since July by fasting but I know it isn't good for me. So I eat dinner with my family every once and a while. I will never, never do to my friends and family what she did to me. I also text her now. I text her every single day. She could reply. This could be one huge sick joke to force me into getting better. But she hasn't answered yet, so I honestly doubt it. I'm so sorry you have to hear it this way.

WHAT?!?!!?!?