hi, it's been a pretty long times since i've been online in this account right? though at first i was only taking a long break after another breakdown i had caused by .... nah, things better left unsaid. it's still pretty traumatic to me, related to family matters again as always. i was a failure to my family and i deserve to get all of this treatment from them. especially from my grandma. i've never been really doing good after that days. i will never get enough of it. please bare with my insensitive ignorant self. i'm dying here, but unluckily still alive.

i've decided to leaving, again, or deleting this account. not a really hard decision, i was already decided it the moment i've lost access through into this dumb account. thankfully i have another account and starting a new fresh there. resting for a bit and finally started caring for myself little by little. not an important things you must heard  from me though, but i am happily can tells that i'm truly happy with myself more now.

one moments i logged out again from this account, i will lost it again. maybe you'll find me again someday by any little chance. or maybe i'll be the one who founds you? who knows, i'm tired enough and i just wanna enjoying myself again. but yeah i've already put my new account in my locations, but please you don't have to see me again if you feels really annoyed by my existence. it was such a waste of times and energy. this is the last, thank you and sorry for everything. goodbye.

-cheryl, a failure.