damnedmisfit

God you're the cutest

everything reminds me of you. i miss you. you probably don't miss me. im so sorry i fucked up beyond repair. i wish i could have made you so happy.

High key feel like unpublishing my stories because I think you're upset with me 

I love you so much.
          
          https://youtu.be/4d2I6SIs_bk

Songs off barriers I want to give to you;
          No Love
          Ode To Destruction
          Great Party
          Medicine Square Garden

Everything means nothing if I can't have you

Just thought I'd come on here and give myself a place to vent, since the person I really care about will eventually see this I hope. But anyway, my life has been going so down hill. We're not talking very much anymore, and I feel like we're growing distant. My dad's birthday is Monday and today he yelled at me saying he didn't exactly want me there for it. So now I feel like a waste of space. I just feel like I'm ruining just about everything I touch. I don't know, sinking feeling I guess. But, one thing keeps me going. You. Even though like you're with someone else. Even though your fulfillment doesn't even come from me. I'm not enough. And I'm sorry, but you really are all I have left. You're my sunshine. You really are, even when the darkest of days come you make me feel as if the sun had never stopped shining. I love you with all of me, and I hope one day, you can love me with all of you too.

Time really has flied since the first day I met you. Do you remember that day? Because I sure do. You probably forgot it, along with our short lived happiness as each other's. I don't blame you. You always say I'm an unforgettable person, yet you didn't bother to try and contact me for months on end. That's okay though, because once I contacted you it was like we never had a falling out. I understand now, that my feelings for you are stronger than what you feel for me. I understand. I just wish you would recognize you deserve so much more than what you have. Even if it's not with me. I hate seeing you hurt, I really do. But it seems like, you always attract that? It's not my business anyway, but I do know the hurt done to you breaks me beyond anything you'll ever know. I know I love you more, even if you try to say you do. Because you don't. I know you could care less if we didn't talk today, but for me it means the universe. I know you love the stars and space, but you're everything in it. You're my own supernova, of course not literally. In a way only my emotions understand. I don't know where I'm going with this. Because you'll never see this, you know. I really just wish one day I can have you again. Even if I know it's impossible. I love you with everything I have. The things I'd do for you, are things I'd never thought I'd do before. I can't comprehend it. But I love you, more than the strongest force in this entire universe. My love for you won't ever die. And I'm sorry for that, because I know you'll never feel the same.

I want you to need me like I need you
          I need you to see me when I'm see-through
          It's sad but it's true: no one's waiting for you
          But I was thinking we could get away sometime
          Yeah, let's call it a date
          And you can devastate my personal space
          I never liked it anyway
          

How can you get the one you love out of your head? How can you let go? It's something else my love for you, it's endlessly true. If it weren't, I wouldn't be writing a book, or even talking to you. Please recognize that. That's all I ask.