dandelionforlove

The pain you feel when you were never regarded as an important one! Didn't ask to be a priority.....but when you get hurt and beg for their presence.....the fact that you have to beg make you realize how unimportant you are to them! 

"Toxic Relationship with Ristretto "
          
          Drank, drunk—Mi Amor.  
          With you, I'm in both heaven and hell.  
          Diving into a work of art,  
          Suffering the immense bitterness.  
          Coupled with a glass of the purest dew,  
          Just to savor the aftertaste of you.  
          My dear, bittersweet symphony orchestra,  
          I wouldn’t dare endure this pain forever.
          
          Cofelion
          2.15pm

Piles of books left unread on my shelf, scared of them being bland or just too good to read! I couldn't even understand the way my own circuit worked. Discovering the unknown has always been a part of me and lately...i keep treasures untouched, just to savour it at last when the time comes! Unpondering when that will be!
          
          Feb 15, 2025
          Polished and refined but stay true to my words!
          8.30

Hi! It's been a long time since i last shared my piece of voice here. The thing is i've been restrained a lot by the perceptions of society. I have doubts on my ablities and tones. I can't no longer share my raw, unpolished and the purest "at the moment" feeling anymore. The eyes, the uncertainty to my own words and works aka the faith and trust to my creativity are just like tons of shackles binding me endlessly! I don't like "the me" right now, but as always, that "me" is also someone who finds comforts in every way. So, i will remind me and won't let go the "me" here!

"A void that can never be filled... A place that cannot be replaced... A person whom I dearly love and hate... Dear, will you ever regret leaving us? Now, how will you repay what you've taken? What I condemn myself for the most is the word I never brought to my lips! I doubt whether I even have a heart. The moon leaving the sky can testify to all my grievances."
          CoL.
          12.24

The song from the dryer hides uncontrollable rapid heartbeats of mine..
          The fragrant of sunlight from him reminds me of sunday morning..
          The pitter patter rain and a cozy coffee perfectly match with numerous romantic scenes from my favorite movies..
          Mine and my gathers at this stream of time... kamisama can i ignore the waking call from annoying clock?

The first person i ever loved..
          Where are you now?
          
          Threads_Our Tapestry of Love.

say... how is things going down this way? Submerging in every moment of pain in my vein and at every beat of my cripple blood cage become disturbing..
          No way to find the road where they say..
          No courage to lead me the way...
          No intention to stay the same and..
          Last no urge to move forward with  little soul i left to cling on the cliff...say how loyal i am to stick this life of mine.

Touched the star..
          Felt the moon..
          Craved the light...
          Still prefer the darkness midnight...

Didn't ask for understanding..
          Didn't want a pity sin..
          Please don't stir my tanquility..
          Barely alive and survive the drowning pit...mercy is the last thing i wanna ditch.