I am so sorry I have not updated in a while, I am working in another book, I have not got back to school, I am in online classes today was the first day of the last semester and I am just tired, I am in an advanced math class and it is just taking out my energy. Today is my birthday and I am honestly so sad, the people I love are not here with me so many things happened between this year and I just can't with this because I thought this year would be better than last years birthday but everything is worse, I dont feel like it and it frustrates me that last year I was crying because almost nobody remembered bc of the start of covid and I told myself this year I would be happy but everything is just going down hill, I am not friends anymore with some people I love, 3 of my family members died, dad is cheating on mom, my babysitter that has been with us is not here anymore and I miss her so much cause I feel so alone and I am slowly just creating friends and I am thinking about new plots and characters just to get distracted, things are not okay between me and father, nor with mom and I feel like we are slowly drifting apart and we are not a family anymore.At least last year there was someone that heard me and made me happy but she is not here anymore. I just can't I am so sorry you are reading this but I have no one to tell this.