i am really sorry to say this but i'll be on a hiatus for some time starting from now. i honestly don't think i'll be able to write for... i don't even know. jonghyun was... is a big inspiration to me and i felt devastated after the news about his death. i've been crying every few minutes for one day now. last night i cried myself to sleep and i woke up a few times. the first word that came up to my mind was his name and i couldn't contain my tears. i almost didn't get any sleep. i still can't believe that this person isn't alive and breathing anymore. i feel so... empty right now at this very moment. we all will move on, eventually. but for now, i will need some rest. it will be tough but i hope all of you get through it too.