ケイラン

no one tells you that turning 22 feels weird. 

❞of all the ways to lose a person,
          death
          is the kindest.❝

❞there isn't any god and when you die, you're just dead
          and heaven's just a fairytale to put you to the bed
          sometimes i think about the chance that i'm wrong
          and then i close my eyes and just remember this song
          i said there isn't any god and when you die, you're just dead
          and heaven's just a fairytale to put you to the bed
          there ain't nobody watching us 'cause nobody cares
          and in the end, we're living all alone❝

❞i should run away, but i stay, stay, stay.❝

sometimes i wonder if there's a difference
          between wanting a body
          and wanting a soul.
          
          what does it feel like?
          how does it feel like to be wanted?
          not just for your looks, your personality,
          but for..you.

❞she said,
          in my heart and in my head,
          tell me why this has to end.
          oh no,
          oh no.
          i can't save us,
          my atlantis,
          we fall.❝

i have multiple favorite persons. 
          i love them, all in a different regard,
          but without the amount of love varying much.
          and i know it's not what exactly you meant, 
          but you are one of them.

i'm no one's favorite person,
          they'd all choose someone else.

❞in the back of my mind,
          you died.
          
          i killed you.❝

i- i- i love you.
          - wHaT uSeLesS fEeLiNgS.
          
          i- i- i need you.
          - wHaT eMbArRaSsInG wOrDs.