darknesswillrise

Sometimes people surprise you and sometimes maybe it's a good thing

darknesswillrise

So today marks the last homecoming I will ever celebrate and its insane to think that all the years that we've spent in these halls has all summed up to one year to one day and its terrifying. I know im going to miss all of these horrible people and this horrible place . 228 days left.

darknesswillrise

I met someone this week that reminded me so much of you, its insane. The way he acts, the way he holds himself, its scary. It's like he was pulled from the depths of my memories but only the good ones. Now when I think back to all the days we all spent together its not your face that comes to mind but his does, I don't know how I feel at this point. I'm confused and honestly somewhat in pain, I spent last night in the depths of the same music we buried ourselves in so long ago.  I started to look around for you but then I remembered that you are gone and everything about you is gone. That realization hit me so hard that I was breathless for a second.  But maybe its a good thing. Who knows.

darknesswillrise

You keep telling me that God gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers, but I can't seem to stop wondering which one of us this battle was meant for.  We're walking the same path but fighting different demons. No matter how this turns out, know that I love you. I'm still standing right beside you.