a writer

okay so ik i kinda disappeared from the face of the earth but recent new followers and votes on my book have really motivated me to show my face and explain a couple of things. firstly, i have been steuggling with my weight, i am 2 st underweight and that has massively affected my health, both physically and mentally; some mornings i wake up and feel so weak that i can't help but burst into tears. i am having CBT sessions and my therapist has noticed symptoms of severe depression and anxiety, low self esteem as well as lack of emotional resilience. secondly, i am in my final year of schooling (year 13 in the uk) and am due to take exams for four a levels and an extra gcse in 3-4 months, so the stress is real. if anybody is interested, i'm looking to study classics at uni, i've had offers from ucl, king's, bristol and royal holloway but have been but on cambridge's version of a waiting list so am most likely to be going to ucl. thirdly, in the summer, my main goal is to write. write anything. i have lost touch with the creative part of myself and want nothing more than the free time to just write and write and write until i can no longer feel my fingers. one of my goals is to write a 1000 line mini epic poem based off of Virgil's Aeneid, basically it'll be all about Dido's sister Anna rebuilding Carthage from nothing and fending off Iarbas and basically being a girlboss. finally, and most importantly, i'm so grateful to the people following me and voting on my creations as it makes me feel like i have a purpose, other than to study and complete my a levels. i have some mocks in the upcoming weeks but following that i will have some free time before my exams, free time in which i wish to begin fulfill the promises i made to my 15 year old self about writing the stories that i either dreamed up or shifted to. if nobody sees this, oh well. but if somebody sees this, i love you <3

kings, queens and everything in betweens, the law of assumption is trending now and nobody thought to tell me? it is literally my lifeline, is so powerful and is definitely worth its own chapter

Please check out my book and vote!! It would mean a lot!! :))
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/296481322?utm_source=ios&utm_medium=link&utm_content=share_writing&wp_page=create_story_details&wp_uname=feuenrage&wp_originator=yQWbUxCIYrmx4yPCP4kaH8fjVU2%2FO9YHD3je0asHSdJeimEDL70fOtyeJX%2FGLuGPhzstIKnhyUjWvpUN10UHrrzwdfKq0xPyGchkgR%2F6lluJwlj%2BLJF%2FD0qbtoD5clKo

I'M STILL ALIVE I SWEAR just needed a break bc a million different things happened in the past month (some good, some heartbreaking) but i think i'm back now and i'll try to update my shifting book before college (uk) starts up on jan 4th :)

GUYS BIG NEWS MY BSF AND I JUST GOT VIP TELEPATH TICKETS TO SEE CONAN GRAY IN JUNE NEXT YEAR AND I'M SO EXCITED

besties i just finished reading 'the song of achilles' by madeline miller and i am absolutely speechless. i genuinely want to curl up and start sobbing. quite possibly the best written book i've ever read.

ngl i keep forgetting that i'm clairvoyant like last night i had a rlly random dream and my uncle was bleaching the front of my hair, explaining what hydrogen peroxide in bleach was etc
          and then today i had a chemistry exam and THE QUESTION WAS ASKING ABOUT HYDROGEN PEROXIDE IN HAIR BLEACH VS REGULAR BLEACH AND THE FORMULA FOR IT
          was a little mind blown tbh 
          anyway quick reminder to take care of yourselves, catch up on that missing work to free up your schedule and that i love you all!

i'm in cornwall on holiday atm but since i'm lovely i updated my shifting book for you guys
          
          also dylan o'brien is my new favourite human and i wanted teen wolf and my dumb ass started another fic

i was going to announce this on tiktok, but, for obvious reasons, i can't, so i'll do it here. within the next week or so, i hope to be publishing the first couple of chapters to my new story "Pleaser", a HPxTVD crossover which i've been working on for a few months now. 
          before i do that, however, i want to update my Shifting book since it's been a while and was wondering if anyone had some suggestions for what they want to see next?

YALL MY MOTHER'S FRIEND FOUND MY TIKTOK AND SNAKED. SHE FOUND MY TIKTOK AND TOOK MY PHONE SO NOW I'M STUCK ON MY LAPTOP. I'M DOING EVERYTHING I CAN TO PROTECC MY WATTPAD THO BC I LOVE YOU ALL