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I wish I would win in life

I wish I was born beautiful 

I wish I anyone else's child right now

I hope in my next life, I'll be beautiful 

I wish I was anyone else right now

please god make me beyond beautiful
          
          I fell off irl

HI GUYS I WAS JUST COMING BACK HERE TO CLEAR MY NOTIFICATIONS AND WHY DID WATTPAD GET RID OF ALL OF MY DRAFTS?? BRO I HAD SO MANY IDEAS IN THERE AND NOW THEY'RE ALL GONE, YOU'VE GOTTA BE KIDDING ME 

happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to meeee, happy birthday to me :)))

guys I lost my 4.0 GPA... I might–

I hate my friends but I love them so much.
          
          But they're already all the friend group and I am nothing but a side friend.
          
          I could be replaced easily when it's just them. I am—even if there's 4 of us, they create a trip and leave me out
          
          Why am I so uninteresting? And boring? And mean? And stupid and not smart and ugly and not pretty and not skinny and undesirable and unattractive and so embarrassing and so
          
          I just wanna be one of the girls
          Please let me be one of you guys
          Please don't leave me out
          Not again
          
          Will I ever find a place of belonging?
          Where they'll be so excited to see me?
          Can I not be just another filler character and make this episode about me?
          
          I want to ruin myself
          I want to become beautiful beyond recognition
          I want to be one of those girls with a body sculpted from the gods
          I would give anything and everything to be skinny and gorgeous and desirable and attractive and
          
          I want to be looked at
          And I want to be talked about
          But in a positive way
          In a way that catches people's attention but because of my beauty
          Why can't I just 
          
          Please