Dawn🌟💫

Hi I saw nct dream…. haha

I hope anyone who reads this had a wonderful day and if not remember better days will arrive eventually. Be patient with others and yourself. Never let yourself get stepped on, try not to step on others. Trust yourself and try to get out of your comfort zone. Say sorry to those you truly love, learn to forgive yourself & others.
          
          2023 is fast approaching but know you will still be valuable & loved. Don’t forget to reach out to your loved ones if you’re struggling and remember you are the most important person in your own life. You will always stay in your own life:) I love you. 
          -Dawn 

I talk so much to myself and to others and yet I never actually get to the heart of it. Lol 

I feel like I’m getting to detached I’m even detaching from my own friends and I need to find a middle ground again bc wtf but I think I may just be being dramatic rn bc someone pissed me the left right off.. over some effin food but why the bell is she always whinging about what food I eat in the first place.. TW: food issues, weight loss
          But oml I’m just so frustrated she was going off about how I’m disconnected from my culture and disrespecting my cooking skills when me saying “I love dal and rice” so much and it was like what the hell how did u manage to make it so freaking negative the reason it takes me so long is Becos I only have one damn pot to cook the food in u idiot.. I’m just boiling and then today she has the effin audacity to say the food looks disgusting as if I FUCKING ASKED. like I had a nice day out and pizza with my friend and she was like that’s fucking disgusting but the fries look nice like shut ur actual trap like nobody effin  asked like actually learn to filter or ur next on my damn distance list bc I cant be fucked for anyone who can’t respect food. Food is a PRIVILEDGE. How can u saw it’s disgusting. U having that opinion about MY FOOD, is a privilege. Stupid mf like omg. And not to mention I struggle with my weight being underweight, not eating enough and other stuff being called I’m a stick and that I look like my parents don’t feed me like HOP OFF MY D1CK IM struggling as it is. I don’t fckin show it but I got issues too I just don’t make it everyone’s damn problem. So fck u fck u so much u don’t even know me. I wish I knew u better but it’s been years, u cant just say that. Idc how close we are or were, stop crossing the damn line. 

19 years past my expiration date and the crowd booed

I might cut my hair today ~~~ yayyyyyy

I realllllyy need to sleep rn like realllllly bc I become too emotional past my bed time esp during this time but I have to be awake until they come back omggggg I want to rip my eyes out 

Sometimes my heart is so big I wonder if it’ll explode ..

AHHHHH what even is ever the right decision I just wanna bash my head through like .. 10 different mediums 

U know sometimes I think I’m literally broken like I’m literally so odd, so weird and I don’t even know what to do with myself yuno? Like yeah, I’m going to uni but also like what if I can’t find a job after my degree? What if failure is all that I can be and what if there’s nothing left of me after all that..?  I wish I was a nepo baby, then I would go live in my little cottage in the middle of a forest, write poetry, go mushroom hunting( chanterelles, chicken of the forest, PUFF BALLS) and then sell expensive poetry... but first I need money so maybe that version of me is yet to come:,) but also I would love to be on stage and do acting or be an influencer( the pressure is too much tho to be perfect), I would love to work in special Ed’s and learn sign language.. I wish there wasn’t such a rush for things.. I’m .. not slow per say bc clearly from the grades I was able to achieve through covid + honestly lack of revision I still got ok grades but I am slow in the sense I really like to take my time to understand things and grasp what exactly I am learning. I love to deeply find the exact answers and focus on the whys. Idk I wish I was academically smart tho but it’s okay I know for a fact god will support me in my endeavours , I will come out strong, with that 1:2/1:1 and get into a good uni for my masters and I just really wanna be excellent like all my big sisters( not blood sisters just the older ppl whom I see as sisters :) wishing any jobless person who read this lots of luck and love