daydreamies
IDEK why I wanna put this out, but I feel maybe I need someone to interact this over with. I'm 25 and I have had to deal with this case a lot this year. So basically when I was small I used to have two different persons at home and at school, so my friends knew me like that only. Over the years as life happened and I came to terms with myself, became a bit confident and got out of whole social awkward phase , I did evolve in a way. So naturally I made a few colleagues and friends that are more compatible to me but ...now when someone from my childhood phase comes up suddenly, I'm unable to have a talk with them... I just feel like they want to talk with the one they knew and I am just not that. I do cherish my memories with them a lot but I get extremely overwhelmed when it comes to even text my those friends. IDK how I'll solve this...I just don't want to hear "Oh you've changed" ...or something along that line (◕ᴗ◕✿)
daydreamies
@Perfect_Antidote I Know really.... it's just so stressful, just because we bettered ourself
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Perfect_Antidote
@daydreamies OMG finally someone said this out loud (TT_TT)!! I'm just a college student , but I can relate with this so much! I was literally a nerd or very awkward person in school, but during my +1 and +2 I kinda got seperate from them and studied in another city by living in hostel. I changed a lot and I was a whole new person. Later I had to join a good college for engineering which is near my home . And literally majority of that college is filled with my school friends! Even freaking seniors and later juniors also came. I just mustered up some confidence and tried to be the whole new me, but I just didn't feel safe and included. Bcz i was a damn introvert back then, i couldn't even approach them now, bcz i don't know anything about them. My circle was very small and I liked it. Those friends are still close to me, but they grew close with other school mates and I feel hella uncomfortable around them because I feel left out in the group. Even if I try to include myself with them, I'm afraid that I might come across as pushy and irritating. I really really had high hopes that I would be a better person and be myself in college, but damn the situation, I hate it here because it is filled with my past in a way. Even though I tried my best to keep up with myself and be confident, but there is always a lingering feeling in my head that, I can never overcome this feeling and be myself.
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