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@daydreamingaboutbts no worries; we all are so busy these days, lol. i see!
            
            that sounds so cool! i find people with yoongi's personality so interesting because they may appear cold on the surface, but are sweethearts under that persona. that sounds rough :( me too! relationships mean a lot to me so, i am always very cautious when it comes to them. yes... the isolation does feel exhausting at times. 
            
            of course! i was never the first choice friend among my peers as well. many even admitted back then that they found me boring and only talked to me to pass time. some only talked to me when they faced problems and asked for advice. (therapist friend)
            i used to feel sad about this because i thought something was wrong with me; that i am not doing my part of the relationship correctly; but then i learnt that it was not like that. 
            oh! i have been hearing that too. it begin to make sense to me recently so, i was not surprised to hear those phrases from those people; i did feel happy because i was given closure for the attempts i made at being a better friend back then.

@irizz- sorry for the late reply, lol O⁠_⁠o.
            Tbh, I haven't been on AO3 for a while, I'm a bit more used to Wattpad actually. 
            
            I get it. Honestly, that was my past, but presently, I'm kind of like the silent type, people think I'm cold and serious all the time (kind of like Yoongi lol). I kind of got a little *too* attached that it made people kind of uncomfortable, I've always been a little socially awkward but I never used to be bothered about it till others made it clear to me, and that's why I started closing off. This happened bc eventually I felt like I was making people uncomfortable and in the end, I felt like not being outward immediately was better for everyone. Not to mention, I have been in some pretty bad friendships, so I guess the walls were already building before I even knew it. I'm the type of person who prefers having fewer friendships that will last a lifetime. 
            The isolation is real for me too. I usually enjoy my alone/me time, but that doesn't mean I don't feel lonely from time to time. 
            
            I do want to ask you tho, do you ever feel like you're not the 'first-choice' friend? Yk, the one people think of first when they see something they want to share? I often feel that way, tho lately I have been talking a lot with my friends from my old school and it doesn't seem like i am the last choice friend, so that's good ig. 

@daydreamingaboutbts that is awesome! are you enjoying your time there?
            
            i totally get that! i think i was too hospitable and affectionate with my friends when i was younger because i genuinely wanted to make people feel comfortable around me, but then i had leant that not everyone can handle affection the same way.
            
            i enjoy alone time too! for me it was more about fitting in and understanding how people worked. i grew up in a different environment compared to other kids so when i begin going to school it felt really confusing because i was very open to friendships and enjoyed talking to people, but i did not understand how to respond to mean comments or people judging me because at times i genuinely did not understand what they meant; for example, i still recall how some girls asked me to not sit with them during lunch when we were little yet i still sat with them because i was naive and oblivious and genuinely didn't understand what they meant; and other times i felt really scared of being alone; for example, i was judged for my "branded" accessories and girls perceived me as arrogant when i just liked expensive things. 
            my parents helped me a lot in getting over issues like this and my self awareness played a huge part here as well. 
            the more recent issue i am experiencing, though, is isolation in public spaces. for example, whilst friends would be walking to their cars with their siblings, laughing and sharing jokes, i would be standing at the forecourt of my institution feeling a overwhelming sense of isolation or in crowded places siblings would have each other's backs while i would be navigating through the crowd by myself. 
            it is strange because i begin to experience this recently and never before. perhaps, it is my body way of telling me something?
            regardless, thank you so much for replying because your response made me feel happy and comforted :)

@daydreamingaboutbts Right I totally get that!!! And I hope so too TwT 

@KJexi2019 ik, i did come across lots of good accounts tho. But ngl, the debate that has been running since it started had taken a toll on me, I've been having a hard time letting it go (and I'm annoyed about it since it's affecting my productivity too and I can't really let that happen, it's an important year for me (⁠・⁠_⁠・⁠;⁠)) and I really couldn't stand it bc I felt that by now it should have been dropped, the person in question himself has moved on. so I thought it was best to just remove it. It's a bit hard rn, but I'm pretty sure I'll get over it soon 

@daydreamingaboutbts Well in my opinion, you’re definitely not missing out on anything not having Tik Tok lol! But yeah it gets so disappointing when everyone just gets caught up in controversy and negative things rather than just doing the content I follow them for. Like yes you can post whatever you want cause it’s your account, but it’s like please stop straying so far into just things that don’t like any good by talking about them T-T But really, good for you! If you feel like it’s just having a negative impact on you, it’s good that you can remove it :3

@daydreamingaboutbts no worries! take your time; no pressure ^^
            
            i am glad to hear that. you are most welcome !! 

@irizz- Sure! I'll see what I can do with this! Thank you for your request! (I may take a while with this tho (⁠─⁠.⁠─⁠|⁠|⁠）
            
            As for that romance book, I'm still trying to figure it out, but the things you suggested are really helpful, so thank you so much again for the tips!

@daydreamingaboutbts also, how is that romance book of yours going? any progress? :) 

@eXcUzEmEeee it's ok, so am I, loll (kind of why I had to ask for help)

@daydreamingaboutbts ah sorry but im a noob at the genre i dont think i have much valuable advice about this-

@daydreamingaboutbts maybe after a major conflict, they just sit together, watching the sky or the city. one of them says something that is not a direct confession, but it is close enough that both the other character and the reader feel it. that kind of subtlety can hit way harder than something overly dramatic.
            personally, i lean more toward subtle romance, courtship, and marriage in my own stories, but that is a whole different topic, lol.

@eXcUzEmEeee Thank you! I just wish I can get enough time (⁠・⁠_⁠・⁠;⁠)

@daydreamingaboutbts  OH WOW THATS A WHOLE LOT! I WISH U WELL FOR THESE PROJECTS! I KNOW U WILL KILL EM'

@eXcUzEmEeee I suppose I can for the Tokyo viewings... I am following a couple of instagram accounts where they offered to show the live, but they didn't send any links today so ig they got caught... I still don't have discord but I think I should go on discord if I can get the links. Thanks for the help! <⁠(⁠￣⁠︶⁠￣⁠)⁠>

@daydreamingaboutbts Im late sorry but maybe this can help you out for future viewings but their concerts usually start at 3:30 IST or 4:30 IST and there are a view discord servers which actively share links immediately after one gets taken down. I could send u that discord link, and there are also many instagram ARMY accounts that stream. Most of these links are of twitch, kick or facebook. But HYBE interns have been fast f**k these days I had to change like five links today-

@daydreamingaboutbts ALSO, I forgot - what time will the show start in IST?