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BADLY WANT TO ORGANIZE MY READING LISTS UGHHHHH

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@ddaengttebayoo yooosh!! getting some "results" now (¬_¬)
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Ahhh just watched Bring the Soul today π_π
          
          ps. had to borrow money from my friend bc im broke, shocker
          
          During my watch. I constantly ask myself. Rather ask the boys. 
          
          "Are you Happy with how your life is right now?"
          
          It pains me to see how they are back stage, all three movies proved that already. Im shocked I could make myself watch them. 
          
          The pain they have to endure. Those injuries. The constant uncomfortable flying trips. The relentless soul they could be being stuck in their hotel rooms when men their age should be out, enjoying life to the fullest.
          
          I wonder if all sevwn of them thinks the same? I hate to hear their answer for this, I cant bring myself to hear it. 
          
          I dont want to know whether theyre regretting or not. Weak right?
          
          I just want them happy. Please dont lwt them regret becoming bts. I know it would break me. Despite not being able to perform in our country, I am actually glad. One place off their list = time for them to rest. 
          
          So thank you Big Hit for giving them this break. I wish they could just rest all they want and have them not worry and let us do the rest... 
          
          Rest well seven little life saviors. Have fun. Enjoy. And please always be healthy and safe. We love you ●︿●

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im binge reading as many naruhina stories as i can
          
          there is this overwhelming feeling inside i cannot explain but it started when i read Peppermint Mocha, Hina's line broke me so much that i cant get rid of it out of mind and bam im doubting Naruto
          
          the thought of hinata being used as a stepping stone to get sakura, that shattered my naruhina fangirl heart, i have always shoved away thoughts like that but when u finally actually read it, i never knew that it could have this effect in me
          
          sometimes i find myself funny, why am i over reacting over some anime couple right? i ask myself, is this even a thing? or i need help or something? 
          
          this is absurd but i just watched naruto last may... i know. such noob. i cant blame you haha, i actually am. but Hinata has grown inside me... like when i read stories of her and Naruto, i also break when she break. I laugh when she does. Am not even having the same qualities and personalities as her but why am i so attached? Is there some explanation for this?? 
          
          plus, reading sasuke retsuden. knowing sasuke's thoughts of his wife. it gave me butterflies. i honestly am jealous of sasusaku fans even to have a wonderful book that tells of sasukes side. i want narutos side as well. yes we have the last but i still feel it wasnt enough.

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ps. am i stupid to actually put my thoughts here? i cant find the perfect avenue to share my thoughts though hahhahahhah
            
            why am i pretending that someone will actually read this hahahahahaha
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earlier months watching the series, i have registered that naruto only married hina bc of neji, bc she jump right in front of pain and all that. i am the worst naruhina shipper am i?? but with the last, i was finally able to realize why naruto married hina. that naruto was finally able to realize things. i just wish he realized it not bc of the genjutsu bubbles though. i really want him to realize it himself.  but still, there is this hole inside that keeps saying that wasnt enough. i want to really know why naruto married hina. what was really on his mind. without those genjutsu-ed memories of hinata helping him realize things butttt the blonde is a duffus and dense as hell. hahahaha. i guess, naruto can reason his way out after all. 
            
            but the gap is still there. the whys and the whats. i hate myself for it. i am the worst shipper for doubting naruto. dont get me wrong, i love naruto, even more than an anime. just like hina, he grew on me too. i just love these two. 
            
            so yeah, i dont know where these all came from. they just came out while i type. i hope im still normal though hahaha. i hope to read this someday in the future and laugh at my 20 year old's first post. 
            
            i just wish the naruto universe wasnt just an anime hehe. i badly want to escape reality and join naruto and hinata haha. can somebody make that possible? i am really hopeless right now am i ┬─┬ノ( º _ ºノ)
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