de1usionalism

THERE IS NO

it's time
          
          no more putting it off, it's about time that i write my fanfic about a lover whose feelings were realized too late. never thought i'd be writing fanfiction again but here i am.

諦めんなよ、お前!
          周りのこと思えよ!    応援してる人たちのこと思ってみろって!!
          お前、昔を思い出せよ!!
          自分のことばっか考えてんじゃねぇか？  
          そんなのすべて洗い流しちゃえ!    変われるよ…
          人生、思うように行かないことばかりだ!
          でもそこで頑張れば絶対必ずチャンスが来る!
          頑張れよ!

a while back, i had this friend.
          
          ever since the day i had initially opened up to her, she was always on about this one dude, let's call him "a". "a's user is really unique", or "a did this and that". always on about something revolving around this a. eventually, i made the connection that she may or may not be in love with this a. 
          
          after mentioning this to her, she began to get all flustered and quickly deny it. her being so adamant about denying it only reinforced the fact she was most definitely in love with a.
          
          unfortunately, a felt the need to disappear and leave her hanging, which meant that the love story i wanted to see play out so badly never happened. it's extremely unfortunate, but it's the thought that counts. hey, maybe my first piece of writing after my hiatus will be a fanfiction about these two.
          
          i can only pray that a comes back to make my dream a reality. thanks for reading.