deadaccountsorry987

"What's the matter, smart^ss? You don't know any f^cking Shakespeare?"

deadaccountsorry987

Depression is not necessarily "anger." Depression is a sadness that takes over your daily life at points where it's most inconvenient.  Sometimes, it's the least a depressed person can do to not let that sadness turn into anger and explode on the nearest person. Sometimes, we never know if we want you to stay or go away. Most of the time, we don't know what we want. Sometimes, we're sorry if you don't understand, and it's okay if you can't deal with it anymore. Other times, we'd do anything to make you stay, anyway.

deadaccountsorry987

I f^cked up, you guys. I f^cked up so badly. I lost the only thing that is important to me in my life, because I am literally one of the most awful people on the planet. I don't even know if I can fix it this time, but I'm already miserable. You guys, I just want her to know that I'm so sorry. She doesn't want to hear it right now, and she doesn't want me.  And I'm crying so hard while typing this, because I need her more than I have ever needed anyone. My world revolves around her. She is literally my everything. No one in my life has ever meant as much to me as she does, and I messed it up. I don't even know why I got mad, you guys. I really don't. Because nothing happened. I had no reason to be mad, and I don't know why or what's wrong with me.  But I would take it all back, you guys. All of it. I would go back to every single moment that I ever messed up, and I would fix it. And if she doesn't want me back, I completely understand... But I just have to hope that she does, because my life is meaningless without her. I'm sorry. I have never been more sorry about anything in my life.