LYNX FLARE

Welp... Im currently bored disappointed and really ticked off cuz yet again ao3 is shut down temporarily cuz of someone being stupid and being asshats. Its been down for hours and i just got into another fic when it said nope bye and f you. Today has been disappointing and really pissing me off

Went from 115 to 65 followers because they are either underage bots or people i dont know or follow

If tomorrow starts without me, and I’m not here to see,
          If the sun should rise you find your eyes all filled with tears for me;
          I wish so much you wouldn’t cry the way you did today,
          While thinking of the many things we didn’t get to say.
          I know how much you love me, as much as I love you
          And each time that you think of me, I know you’ll miss me too.
          But when tomorrow starts without me please try to understand,
          That an angel came and called my name and took me by the hand.
          He said my place was ready, in heaven far above
          And that I’d have to leave behind all those I dearly love.
          But as I turned and walked away a tear fell from my eye.
          For all my life I’d always thought, I didn’t want to die.
          I had so much to live for, so much left yet to do.
          It seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you.
          I thought of all the yesterdays the good ones and the bad.
          I thought of all the love we shared, and all the fun we had.
          If I could relive yesterday, just even for a while,
          I’d say goodbye and kiss you and maybe see you smile.
          But then I fully realized that this could never be,
          For emptiness and memories would take the place of me.
          When I thought of worldly things I might miss come tomorrow
          I thought of you and when I did my heart was filled with sorrow.
          When I walked through heavens gates I felt so much at home.
          God looked down and smiled at me from his great golden throne
          He said, “This is eternity and all I’ve promised you”
          Today your life on earth has passed but here life starts anew.
          I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last
          And since each day is the same there’s no longing for the past.
          You have been so faithful so trusting and so true.
          Though there were times you did some things you knew you shouldn’t do.
          You have been forgiven and now at last you’re free.
          So won’t you come and take my hand and share my life with me?
          So when tomorrow starts with out me don’t think we’re far apart,
          For every time you think of me, I’m right here in your heart.

The last man that mattered in my life is gone and i dont know how to feel let alone how to think i want to scream and tell them they cant have him and i want to curl into a ball and hide......i just didnt want my grandpa to go so quickly........ I didnt want him to go and yet he was taken! 

Whoever invented google chats and forced people to switch over to it from hangouts needs to be bloody shot. I cant get that damn shit to work at all today! 

Yay!! Its officially my 25th birthday now!! Wow being honest it doesnt feel like its my birthday already it still feels like it should be months off. 

Hey guys you might have noticed a lack of activity from me for over a month or so almost two months. I kinda got into an accident and broke my ankle in three places so badly we had to plan for surgery. The surgery went great i went to the docs yesterday again and i will be able to bare weight on it little at a time once i get my walking boot just waiting on my insurance to approve of it. I had gotten the stitches out a week or so prior. Now its just dealing with all the new hardware in my leg holding things together and then physical therapy. 
          
          Thats an update thanks for following me and stuff see you soon hopefully my little pups! 

Hey guys sooo i havent been on in a while and diring that time i got into a small accident and broke my ankle and part of my lower leg near my ankle. I just had surgery yesterday to fix it and they put on plates and screws to hold everything together ao im at home in recovery now. In two weeks i get checked out again to see if i can get the walking boot or not and then from there ill be in the walking boot for three or so more weeks then physical therapy for i dont know how long but i wont even be healed by my birthday in june so i have a long road of recovery ahead of me. Wish me luck. 

Hey guys so the dog bite isnt healing properly and my hand has been put into a brace to keep my fingers safe. The doctor thinks i have either damaged nerves tendons or ligaments and  i am being sent to a specialist for it and we will go from there to see what they plan to do with my hand. Ill keep you posted the best i can. 

Im home from the hospital. I was biten by a dog last night and they said my fingers not broken thankfully but i will have a lot of swelling and mobility of my ring middle and pointer fingers for a while.