"I always wondered, ever since I took that burden, that curse... I wondered what it could be, what my happiness could even look like. I never found an answer. because the one thing I want... it's something I know I can't have. but I think now- I think I know now. happiness isn't in the having. it's in just being. it's in just saying it.
I know. I know how you see yourself, dean. you see yourself the same way our enemies see you. you're destructive and you're angry and you're broken. you're "daddy's blunt instrument". and you think that hate and anger, that's- that's what drives you. that's who you are. it's not. and everyone who knows you sees it. everything you have ever done, the good and the bad you have done for love. you raised your little brother for love. you fought for this world for love. that is who you are. you're the most caring man on earth. you are the most selfless, loving human being I will never know. you know, ever since we met, ever since I pulled you out of hell, knowing you has changed me. because you cared, I cared. I cared about you. I cared about sam. I cared about jack. I cared about the whole world because of you. you changed me, dean.
I love you.
goodbye, dean."

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