@deathfl But in all seriousness, it doesn't sound that bad, I think you just worry too much about it, and when you constantly fear making a mistake, it just adds anxiety to the situation, and then it makes it more likely to happen. It's just like telling yourself "Don't think about pink elephants!" All you're gonna think about it pink elephants. I used to have very bad social anxiety, when I started trying to focus on being calm, and not worry about being awkward and making mistakes, I started to notice that I didn't run into the situation as much. Just try to stay positive and not be so hard on yourself!