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@THEATREOFTRAGEDIES me too bbg :(( ive been really dead lmao

your bio truly struck me in heart. it is a question; that some wouldn't dare to find an answer for. 

@anecdcohe ahaha kinda dead ngl

i dream at 16 frames per second
          chipped lips, bitten nails
          the blood flooding my eyes burst into embers
          the frames burn with a green flame
          and i mould the ashes into
          									poetry
          
          																				---3:23 a.m. // 3rd oct '23
          
          
          found this random ass prose in my poetry journal from last year and ngl it kinda tingles my brain. 

"the curse of creativity" 
          
          i can't seem to get this phrase out of my head. "creativity" and "curse". how possibly could these two words be connected? it's a concept I wish to explore through this dream stuck in my head. then again. i can't seem to get it down. the ideas are overflowing but i just can't seem to nail them onto paper. can't bring them into being. my head is overloading and my shoulders aren't strong enough to carry around all these new worlds bubbling to life in my little head. i can't play god. i don't think that highly of myself. i don't think of myself at all. and it kills me. it kills me everyday. my head may one day burst and spill out all these universes. bleak colourful worlds. I'd love to see it for myself. but that's not possible. 
          
          is this the curse? the curse of creativity? 
          
          sorry i'm rambling at midnight-

@seven_hues thank you love <3333

@Primrose009636 I so agree with you!!! It's one of the most amazing books with such powerful poetry!!

@Primrose009636 MY GOD THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH <333 YOU ARE MAKING MY DAY SERIOUSLY *crying emoji* 

Can yall show some love to '.hairfall---little nail salon' from my poetry collection because that piece is the closest to my heart (second to '.you were me' ofc) and it barely gets noticed like- it's different from my usual style but it's literally like the most beautiful thing I think I've written. :')

Need motivation to write. Someone please break my heart :')