lethe :)

alr alr i'm gonna discontinue my books, like i won't take them down (maybe tlw) but i'm not gonna write in them anymore
          
          i just lost interest in them tbh, and i've started writing for other things as well
          
          also wattpad sucks lol

alcina dimitrescu could cut my hand off, sew it back on with rusty wire, cut it back off, choke me with my own hand, and then stab me with her blade finger things and i would still be like "pretty :( let's get married you lovely woman" and i have no shame in admitting that
          
          also ranboo & techno both live semi-close to me (like 5-6 hours but if you just sleep half the ride, it's not bad, it's so worth it, san francisco is gorgeous) and that's very cool :( (/pos) i wanna meet tall ender boy and monotone pig man a lot tbh
          
          RANBOO NEVER STRUCK ME AS A CALI BOY i genuinely thought he lived in north carolina or somewhere on the east coast

(dsmp rants and maybe spoilers?? idk
          
          //mentions of ptsd, some insanity, death, & suicide)
          
          the simultaneous love and hate i feel for c!wilbur and c!dream is so fucking insane, and same with c!tommy
          
          like, yes, they're both awful people, but in a way they're just so...human. their stories are so different but they're just really huma
          
          c!dream just wants his server back, he needs control, he feels like if he doesn't have power, he's useless, he's weak. he learned that if you had attachment, you were weak, you could be controlled. he got rid of everything he had, everything he cared about, because he was scared he was going to lose power. he's just...alone? he just wants control over something in his life
          
          c!wilbur was fighting for his country, he wanted his country back, and if he couldn't have what he built up from the ground, then no one could, everybody seemed to abandon him and he was left with tommy, a 16 year old who couldn't afford to be his therapist. wilbur spent his life building l'manberg, and when it was snatched out of his hands, he went mad, his fall was so human, and so touchable
          
          c!tommy is only a child, he's a kid. tommy's a kid who lost his brother figure, his best friend exiled him, he was manipulated. he has ptsd from exile, the littlest things are so terrifying to him. the relationships he had, they're gone. he believed he had dream, but he didn't. he had wilbur, but lost him. he had tubbo, but tubbo sent him away. everyone on the server hated him. he had no one, he was debating suicide in exile. he has lost EVERYTHING that was dear to him, l'manberg, wilbur, henry, logstedshire, his discs, everything. but he's a fighter, and i have to commend him for that. he always fights for what he believes is right, he wants to be the hero. he needs somebody to rely on, to be there, after everything
          
          SORRY I JUST FEEL SO STRONGLY OVER THE CHARACTERS I JUST DJUDKWJDHS

Surprise shawty

forgot wattpad existed tbh, its been a good while since ive been on here lmfao
          
          hello fellow goblins, how are you?

just found out that people make the sad-ist animation audios into podcast episodes on spotify and theyre my new obsession :')
          
          its so interesting just to listen to things happen, and not watch it
          
          like you can tell whats happening and imagine it in your head and its really cool
          
          and the l'manburg anthem is on there too, its sick
          
          so is georgenotfound onlyfans by weston koury (its not on platforms lol)

happy valentines day you sad, sad individuals <3
          
          i love you, ill be your valentine

my only two fears are mark zuckerberg and the kool aid man
          
          and whoever put water in the soap dispenser in my bathroom is the first on my hit list
          
          i hate it here.

just realized the struggle of finding books that use your pronouns
          
          like a LOT of them are she/her 
          
          some are they/them, so its inclusive, but theres just so many that are she/her
          
          it must be an absolute nightmare tryna find books that use he/him or other pronouns specifically
          
          and that motivates me to use they/them pronouns in my books a lot more

cant believe i used to say uwu unironically