demi-devil

Bro, you and G(ee) might honestly do better with some time apart! I've heard both sides of the argument and it sounds like you two need space! Bc the more this keeps up the more drama it starts, the more emotions it riles up, and the more sleep I lose (lol). I'm saying this bc you two are seriously heated over this and need to chill, I'm worried about y'all 

Hi 

Iam gonna smile
          Drink the pain away 
          And
          Rage
          

You tell me you love me ❤️
          but you say you want him 
          you say your sorry 
          and then you look for him

Iam everywhere right now......I was with a person at a concert that Iam with and it was awesome but at the same time I didn’t know what to do and how to act really ....it was good ig I mean this is the first actual date ig.........but when I got home after dropping her off I called and no answer I got alittle upset I called her ex and I call him when I get bored and he didn’t answer it’s late so they could be sleeping but there phones did ring ....and Iam worried but it’s probably over nothing but at the same time Iam fat ugly and boring so she might be tempted....maybe I should stop eating and try something else ig....
          

Maybe Iam the problem here .........if it keeps happening over and over maybe it’s just me.....and Iam never gonna learn cause Iam to much of a dumbass to learn anything.......I should just be single ......so nobody gets hurt.....i might get hurt but that doesn’t matter.......it better for me to be the only one hurt instead of multi people being hurt

And Iam venting and 2:22 am with school tomorrow with math common assignment 
          I really need help 
          

G I loved a lot but Ig she never took me seriously or I didn’t give her what she needed but idk she broke up with me over a stupid thing like this and I don’t know if to give up or not and even if I was to date g again I wouldn’t be able to out side of school since my dad knows and sorta forbidden it since or the results of its effect to me and getting upset and he just got tired of me ignoring big red flags
          So it might just be more thorn relationship instead if the rose
          Iam just tired of being hurt and I know every thing isn’t about  me but I can’t help if you don’t tell me what’s wrong and go run off and tell someone else your problem and leaving me someone your dating standing there like a dumbass

I get a text from Ryan saying she choose me 
          I call her Iam upset crying asking why like we were just Hugh and lovely not even two hrs ago what happened after every thing he’s done she says he helped her
          And I go by the saying even satan use to be an angel for the fact good people can be bad
          I can be nice and childish but I can be violent if pushed 
          We group call with this prick and I threaten the living shit out of him like Iam on the dark web
          Now Iam sitting here waiting for her to choose me or some asshole online

We trade our hoodies and items we’ve given one another at school......... i assuming she liked someone else but apparently I was cheating with N even though I’ve been putting up extra wall between me and N 
          But it all laid out to Ryan N’s online bf telling G I was cheating 
          She trusted someone I pissed off that doesn’t even live here over me.....
          After finding that out I helped resolving it but I’ve really became numb about it 
          So I gave N anothe chance we even went to our own little date at the square because we had to be up there anyway cause of football and her thing
          We start walking to the school she starts passing out so I help her walk the way to school I give her cold water and talk to her until she falls asleep on my lap in the shade waiting for my dad to pick me us up
          My dad picks us up drops her off and we get home