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@eldermagus
for a second he just stands there. what should he say? it's all coming down on top of him. the world pulling into the centre of his gut just to be spilled back out through its whirlpool. "I... I... look, i had a really bad time last year and i was stuck inside just /rotting/ in fucking -self hatred and everything and- and people- everyone /everyone/ was talking about me, the newspapers and the magazines all talking about how i looked after - after he- i- and they were taking pictures and - and saying i looked bad or good and and - i don't know what happened, i was just- just- i don't know! I was stood in front of the mirror one day and I just changed and i was tall and - a couple of weeks ago i cut my finger and it bled forever until i just wished it'd go away and it did but it-but now i - it's like i- when people- when i see people scared, especially- especially of me, it's like i can taste it, and its... it's good, its - I cant - " he had grabbed great chunks of his hair gripped in his fists by then, breath heaving. "nothing tastes as good."