@depressed_scorpio
Thank you everyone for your kind words, I really do appreciate it. That writing piece was honestly just something to help me get emotions out and help me cope, what it’s about happened over a year ago and I am recovering, I just don’t want any of you to worry. So thank you again
Something I wrote, idk, enjoy:)
Take me back to that night. The night where everything went wrong. If I had known everything that I know now back then, would I do anything different? Would I have still given him my Snapchat? Would I have still asked him to meet up? Would I have got in his car? Would I have given him a hug? My biggest flaw is that I trust too easily, and that’s what I did that night. He said he wanted to take me for a ride, that’s all. If I had known all the trauma it’d cause would I have let him kiss me? Would I have taken him to my favourite park? Would I have let him touch the parts of me no one had ever touched before? I used to dream of the day I was no longer innocent. I dreamed of candles and rose petals and fireworks. I dreamed of a big bed with lots of kissing and an occasional “I love you”. If I had known I wouldn’t have a choice, would I still have asked for weed? Would I have smoked so much? Would I have shown him vulnerability that no one else had seen? A year later and I still think of him, I think of the way his hands roamed my body. The way his hands moved me so I was in front of him. The way it hurt when I realized what was happening. If I had known that a year later I’d still hate myself for something that wasn’t my fault, would I have acted like I liked it? Would I have kept my mouth shut and let him finish? Would I have not hurt my head in his car? A year later and I still feel the need to be used the way he used me. A year later and I still want the pain that came with that night. A year later and I still have no hope. If I had known I’d cry myself to sleep for years to come, would I have ever said hello?
Im so sorry you had to experience that :( I wish I could say my dms are open and the usual pleasantries, but this is so, so, so much more than that. I hope that you are doing better now, and I hope that you have been able to experience love and care after having had such a horrible and truly grotesque thing being done to you. As usual, my dms are always open, and I hope that you are able to receive the help that you need. Take the utmost care and I can only wish you the best in life. <3
@depressed_scorpio I'm so sorry that happened to you. If you need to talk, my dms are always open.
I highly recommend “The Way I Used To Be”, it’s a book you can buy on Amazon or at target or your local bookstore, it’s about a freashman who gets assaulted by her brothers best friend and it’s her journey throughout highschool. Warning, it is extremely sad but I promise you that you’ll want to read it
And mother good one if you don’t want to leave Wattpad is “See Me” and “Notice me”, also very sad but also amazing.
Currently reading “You’d Be Home Now” by Kathleen Glasgow, I’ll update yall how it goes o7
Hi everyone, just posting to say I’m okay. Those of you who’ve been here for a while know I’ve been struggling for a while and I acted on it, it was something I regret and I’m getting help. Thank you for your concerns
That's great lovely :) take care and my dms will always be open if you even just wanna chat
Survived me first OD
Guys I got in an accident today and now I’m really thinking about life like holy shit
P.S we are okay, no one got seriously injured the car did get totaled tho which is sad
I trust you guys, If you want to add my new snap! Just comment here that you added me so I accept it lol
Molly_gadget
Guys he’s coming over Wednesday and I haven’t seen him in over a week… I MISS HIM
Guys I got locked on Snapchat for literally the dumbest thing ever
I’m so upset
It’s not a good book if the author didn’t put “guys please don’t read this I wrote it when I was like 14” in the description