depressedatiny

Rereading my writing makes me cringe 

depressedatiny

This just feels so right and I'm so happy :)
          I have family now
          I have a brother
          And it just feels so right :)
          I have found exactly what I wanted in a best friend
          I've found my platonic soulmate :)
          And I cannot express, no matter how many words I use, how much I appreciate and adore and care about my newfound brother :)

depressedatiny

It's just that time of year I can't describe it
          So much has happened to me over the years during October-December
          It's all a big blur of pain and emptiness that started... in 2019? 2018? I can't even remember
          I was so young, too young
          It's grown over the years. The harassment, the abuse, and I'm sick
          This time of year makes me so tired 
          All I do is sleep, I don't eat, and I'm so unproductive
          I want it to end